Grace's

Hey mummy.
Thanks for the chicken soup!
Haha.

I was online with cheryl the other day.
At home.
Something funny.
We were surfing. Haha. Than my mummy was in the living room.
Just happen that i was showing her pictures.

"Who is this? Aiyo, why so ugly de? She looks that those very ba dao kind. Those want to find trouble kind."

Whoa. Cheryl and I roar into laughter!!

2 more months.
And i am off.
To far far away land.
Haha. Mixing with younger people makes me feel younger.
Think younger and i guess more immaturely.
Just feel like doing immature stuffs before i can't.
WHAHAHAHA!!
Haha. It's time to grow up!!

I sign up for the Adventure club FOC. Looks fun la.
Hopefully it is.
Next to join is water sports.
I am starting to gym.
Trying to get my lazy bones to move.
Haha.

I guess it should be play hard and study hard...
Buts... I am always play hard and never study!!
FAINTS.
Honestly, it's a miracle i got into all 3 uni.
I have friends who score 0.04 better than me but couldn't get into any.
I think i must really thank coach.
She wrote a wonderful testimonial for me.
And of cause my supervisor, who leave me to die during my FYP.
Haha. But HE and SHE gave me my distinction.

Labels: i will not fall. =p

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

One lucky day 11:36

A new day ahead.
Decided to do abit of exercise.
Going to uni soon.
RENEE!!! Is your appeal successful?
MY POTENTIAL ROOMMATE!!
Haha..! Okok, Don't say i am a bitch alright?
And oh ya, i know you knew about my ulterior motive! Hahaha.

Anyway uni is troublesome.
Bleahs. So much things to apply.
AND... The main point is i have not do ANYTHING yet.
Hahaha!!

Labels: coming soon i hope

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

R-rated!! don't read if don't feel like 23:34

First and foremost. I don't need any respect from you.
Because i don't respect you.
The day you threw the respect that i have for you into the drain.

LAME.
Why am i even typing stuffs for a person not worth it?

But anyway, it's not the ELBOWS that matter
It's the attitude.
Hais. Really waste my time typing so much. =(

And wow.
Haha. Talking about love.
Or underground love if you are talking about.
Which underground love are you talking about? I have many. HAHAHA!
I think you have no right to talk about love to me or to anyone else.
Because in this aspect of life i despise you more.
If you haven bring it up, i would probably have never said anything.
But for your record.
Please be monogamy.
Even i graduated, i feel pretty embarrass when others bring up stuffs to me about nyp.
And obviously i do not need to elaborate.
Even if you are not a monogamy animal, i understand.
But do make up your mind between NEED, LOVE and WANT.
I am no bisexual hate.
But do make up your mind which sex you feel like dealing with.
But, Nah. It's your own drama.
Buts, that poor girl being tortured by you.
Give her some slag tho she stepped into it willingly, LOVING you.

In reply to your sms, it is not the elbows that matters. Ya true. like cheryl say. It's the attitude. *shrugs* nothing much else for me to say. What matters is if you understand or NOT.

Labels: The last i have for you. old birds unite

02:14

Basketball. It is a simple game in fact. Won by scoring the most points by making the most basket. In fact it is an easy game isn’t it? However, basketball in this stage of life is not as simple as it is. Strategy. Stamina. Body contact.

Had a friendly match today. Suppose to be fun and lovely. So looking towards it because it is a get together for the “old birds”. It’s a FRIENDLY match afterall.

No deny that body contact is a necessary on the court. But movements were kept minimal. That is for sure. Believe me. You won’t want to try it. Anyway, have you heard of this particular phase? “Only do unto others what you want others to do unto you.” Look into the mirror. Or maybe recall your past actions. Are you sure you did not? Or had you done it accidentally without even knowing it? Oh, it’s totally agreeable that basketball is a learning game. Learn from experiences. So do learn it now. Because you will get the worst outside. I guess, instead of staying in the little well, climb out of it and see the world.

Basketball is the survival of the fittest. Elbow? It’s part and parcel of basketball. Withstand it or sit by the side to cheer.

If everyone says so, don’t you need to do a little reflection on your behaviour? In life, in everything we do, it’s not all about you. Smile is just an expression. Do remember to look beyond it. Tertiary education is too old a stage for a simple minded happily ever after. It’s a stage for learning to grow up. Talk less, think more, listen, learn and grow up.

Respect. It’s not a noun. It’s a description. It comes from the heart. Show what you say. Not just by saying. Mean it. Prove it. Do it. So before you want to talk about respect, make sure you know what respect is in the first place. It’s important to know where you stand in life. It’s your choice which line you are drawing but it’s others choice how much respect they will be giving you. As mention above, Only do unto others what you want others to do unto you, so, respect others if you want others to respect you.

It’s your decision. It’s your choice. But do consider what i’ve mention if it does make sense to you.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Just like a stranger 02:32

Nothing much for me to say.
Haha.
Going back nyp for friendly tml.
Just something for enjoyment sake.

Alot have been going through my head.
Haha.
Suddenly i seem to have woken up from the little dream of mine.
Let's nature takes it course.

Labels: i need some time, i will learn to accept

Sunday, June 22, 2008

"Today is the last day" 22:23

I'm not alone. Yet it's empty. One after another, the harsh reality. The face of plain tiredness. No idea when I could hit the bulls eye. Everything is just incorrect. Or has it never been correct?

The beauty of the moon light shone upon me. Chilly and blur. But yet I refuse to go. So near yet so far, in fact I'm just here. Till my batt last.

Lost. In time to be found?
Fight. Till the day i left without a single word or any effort to try, that's the day i gave up fighting.

Labels: I am just a say only.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

tell me why 01:08

Waiting for an angel to appear...

Labels: it always happens

When it's gone, it's gone forever. 00:46

Had just taken a bath.
Not because i hadn't.
But because i just feel like taking it again.

And while bathing, suddenly, alot have been through my head.
And it seems like i am using those water to wash them away.
Oh my.... Am i wasting water? haha...

I was chatting with josephine online just now.
Love.
Her love.

Giving in... Yet one party just had to give in more.
But yet one party is just being taken for granted.
It is just unfair.
Not all the efforts are being appreciated or seen.

That girl...
Haha... So much problems...
Maybe life is just meant to be filled with problems.

Labels: Just like taking a knife to stab our own heart.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

a gift taken for granted 16:55

It's a relaxing place.
Those innocent birds flying.
These quiet moments.
Blank empty mind.
Away from the bustling city.

In life, nothing is perfect.
And so it is.
Under the happy smiles lies a sore deep down inside.
That's life.
The many masks that we humans wore.
Care about the nude reality?

Remember, only do to others what you want others to do onto you.
Put yourself in others shoe.
Close your eyes and feel. and think.

Labels: asking just for the sake of asking

Friday, June 13, 2008

It's all 14:23

Sunny day today.
In my living room now..
Thinking of what to do.
Keeping myself busy and happy.

Haha!

The entire jug of tea is gg to be finished by me already.
I just need water.
But yet. Once again, i'm not drinking water.

So me.
Just me.

Labels: beyond words...

Close your eyes and feel 01:37

I dreamt.
It broke.
I died.

Labels: Are all these just a dream?

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Tried, but still.. 18:11

I was talking to my gay part this afternoon.
And we all agreed.

In life, it's all about choices.
It's all about sacrificing.
There is no having best of both sides.
So people. Don't be greedy.

Had yummilicious read bean soup this morning. (Thanks Hon)

Refereed at CCAB.
This is my current job.
Being a referee.
It's tiring. But it pay good bucks.

Time for work outs!!

Labels: down by a tad

Monday, June 02, 2008

You are on the verge right now. 13:47

1.48pm.
Still no mood to work.
I took leave in 5/6/2008.
Cos i am left with 3 more days.
My last day will be on wed.

My colleague are so nice.
They wanted to treat me to breakfast and dinner.
The smile is plastered onto my face.
Really thank them for being so nice.
But really no mood at the moment.

I broke my row of train that i built just now.
18 of them.
Dunno why, but i got all gala about it.
Pretty upset.
There goes my pretty train.
I must learn to let it go when i need to i guess.

I had a good dream last night.
One that i wished i hadn't woke up today.
I don't mind dying in the dream.

Once i woke up, the dream vanished.
Every hope of it was dashed.
Badly.

All the promises made.
It broke...
Does it have any meaning to you at all?

I am lost.
Where is my angel who promised to bring me back to where i belong?

Somewhere in my heart...
There is this indescripable feeling.
Is it hurt?
Is it unbearable?
I no longer have any idea.

Labels: Isn't it?

The sweet of.. 09:34

I am left with 3 more days.
Fast i hope.

I'm at the office now.
And i am totally flat.
No mood for work. Don't even have the mood to start a conversation with my neighbour.

FYI: My neighbour is in bad mood too.

It should be monday blues i guess?
Hope tomorrow will be a better day.
Or will it be?

Waking up 5 in the morning is a chore.
Especially when i am sleeping late at night.
I'll be glad if i have 4 hours of sleep.
My body is fighting with my mind.
I am tired.
I tried cracking jokes and smiling and fooling around.
But i seriously am tired.

I guess everyone is tired.
This is the time where everyone is unhappy.
I decline to comment.
There is nothing to be said.

Why bother trying?
Because trying is not enough.
Because if it doesn't work, trying is not worth trying.
So make it work grace.
Make it work.

Deal with it.

Everyday when i first open my eyes.
I pray.
I pray that my everything will be alright.
Everything will be happy.
No fights. No quarrels. No disappointment. No unhappiness.

Does it work?
Prayers doesn't work.
Because it is me who is suppose to make it work.

Whatever my decision, i have to think twice.
I am afraid.
I am afraid of negative answers.
"NO. I DON'T WANT. IT'S NOT GOOD."
It just scares me.
Black face. Tired face. Disappointed face.
There is just nothing i can do.
I dunno what i can do.
It just sinks together with it.

Labels: 10months ago...

wilkommen

Loving you
Missing you
Forever
~~Letting go~~

all about me

GRACE.ZAVE.HEIKE

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