Grace's

I have been skipping FYP alot recently. So much so for wanting to be good. ARGHH! Okies. My new resolution : I am going to be good and try to do my project!

It's a complicated life.

What can i say. I have no motivation to do any other thing.

Everyday i am in a daze.

I am like under some spell.

Every other thing just seem meaningless.

Oh well... *shrugs* Haha. Does it matter??!

I AM GOING TO GRADUATE SOON!!

YEAH!!

I need a haircut.

I want to dye my hair b4 my birthday.

Haha.

Anyway, yesterday, i skipped FYP again. I ran away at 3. Than poof. Off i went to the IT fair at expo. The IT fair deals weren't that fantastic anyway. Was thinking of look at PSP but... No good deals. Handphones... Also no good deals.

So i dunno how, but i ended up at parkway.

Walked.

Ate.

OOO! December is coming soon. Dunno why, but i seem to love december. But yet again. It's time to grow old again. -.-" Christmas is coming!

I wish i wish............................! =x

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Monday, November 26, 2007

ilu 16:29

Thanks mystery person!
*winks*

You never fail to make me smile. =)

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always forgotten, but i'll get used to it. 12:03

Alright, this is stupid.

I'm back at my original seat. Those lecturers and DT must be lazy to install all the needed programs for me. That's why i am back here.

Or maybe they are afraid that if i am in some secluded lab, i might be forgotten.
Like always.
Too small to be remembered.
Maybe being forgotten is good.
Haha.

*shrugs*

Now in addition to doing my project. I need to do my report. ARGHH! Don't feel like doing report at all. *headache*

Labels: blending

Friday, November 23, 2007

sick 20:02

I feel sick.

Having fever. 38.2

Have been home since 3pm. Feeling lethargic the entire day.

But i kind of couldn't get to sleep. Closed my eyes for a while. Stone abit. Waiting for the sun to set.

Now, it's dark, i didn't on my light. I didn't go down for dinner.

I think my existence was not felt in the entire house. Haha, maybe it is better this way.

It is a irony. Humans are filled wth many choices. How many time people made choice they regret? But one thing for sure, every single choice made is irreversible. A little choice can change the entire situation. But how many right choices are made?

I shall go back to my bed. =p

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trying my best to smile 12:21

-->Moody?

No.

-->Sad?

No.

-->Speechless?

Maybe??

-->Emo?

Nope.

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Suddenly felt speechless.
Grace is speechless. Yea.
Faints...

I am not thinking of anything.
I am not doing anything.
I will just keep quiet and smile.
Maybe that is a better choice.

Felt like ranting out loud.
But yet i dunno what i can say.
I don even know why i am speechless.

Great... Suddenly felt like burying myself in my pillows and just sleep and never wake up.
Maybe life is easier if humans have to sleep more.

What are obligations?
Plans?
Space?
Wants?
Needs?
tiredness?
Smiles?
Coldness?
Love?
Misses?
Tears?
Sore?
Green?
Qualify?

Just don felt like forming sentences.
It's too troublesome.
Too much time involved.

Fullstop.

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

complètement amoureux de vous 11:31

I am going to shift my lab soon! But still, it will be in block R, level 2. The stupid hub!
Haha, ping ping and fly will be coming back..! Miss them so much!

Anyway, jessica is complaining that i am pinic-ing in the lab. Oh well, i need food to keep me going. Haha, just realized that 80% of the rubbish in the bin in the lab is from me. It consist of food wrappers, empty cans of coke, empty packets or green tea, sweet wrappers, and even mac wrappers and plastic bags.

It is horrendous to see the amount of rubbish i have. To ad on, the rubbish is directly proportional to the amount of food i consume!

I skipped att yesterday. Went off at 2. Felt a bit guilty, but i really cannot take it. I just don feel like sitting at the lab staring into the computer. To add on, my house have some other more appealing stuffs that are awaiting for me. For example, my warm and cosy bed, nice food, good tea... .... ...

What can i say? School is just so NOT appealing!

Suddenly i miss attending lectures. Suddenly i miss my tutorials. Suddenly i miss skipping class. You must have thought that i went nuts. But no, haha, with my workload and with the work that i am doing... It is truly better off studying. (but w/o project).

Anyway, i meet jasmine after her attachment. We headed to Ice3 for icecream. Haha. It was suppose to be nice. But got this irritating bunch of kid were there making a whole load of noises! My god, KIDS...

SPOIL my mood for icecream lo.

Faints.

Haiz. i am lazy to continue typing and blabbering on so... I will just stop here!
*poof*

Labels: complètement amoureux de vous

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

09:36

I AM SO SO SO TIRED!

Haha... Gods. Anyway, this is week 12! It's going to be FYP soon. But in actual fact, it's all the same right? There is actually not much difference. I will still be doing the same project. I will still be under the same supervisor. I will still be located in NYP.

The only difference is that i will be changing labs.

I have no idea if they will be paying me for the next 12 weeks tho.

*pray*
I need $$$!

There are so many thing i want to get. ARGHH!

Christmas is coming... So, more presents to come along with. So it mean more money need. 0.0

Labels: ho ho ho

Monday, November 19, 2007

bleahs 09:24

Hasn't been updating over the weekends.

Here it is,

Saturday:
Nothing much happened. I was slacking at home the entire day. I was nua-ing at home. Listening to music. Downloading music.

Haha. Went out to eat beef noodle with jasmine at kovan b4 heading out.................

Sunday:
Hmm... Woke up with a body filled with lethargic-ness. SO SO SO tired for god knows why. We went to the flea market @ zouk. Wow, it was liked filled with people. Faints, not comparable to those lady nights la, but still it was quite crowded. The stuffs there are mainly quite retro. It was cool. I brought a retro kiddy tee for 10 bucks. Haha. I AM SO BROKE. Actually already no money le lo. Faints. After that we went to this hong kong small eatery for some food. Haha. *yum*

Made our way to sbc.

Today coach is playing! =) Tho it is for a mere 5 minutes... Buts... She is super duper shuai la. Haha. Damn cool. All the while gwen was blabbering about her. Gwen is her crazy fan! Haha.

Sorry gwen, for blabbering out your some of stuffs. Dunno why, i just kept talking yday. AGRHH!! I so felt like using scotch tape to tape my mouth. Haha.
*irritated*

We were about to go home and cheryl decided to drive me to kovan's Hong Kong cafe. Ate again. I think i am gg to grow damn freaking unhealthy. Faints. I hasn't been working out lately!!!

Time to go gyming!!!

Labels: number 1 fan

Saturday, November 17, 2007

iphoneipnoeiphone 14:35

Human is a very idiotic creature!!

Haha.. I am all good reasons to say so. =p
Anyway, all of us just have a place to spend all out precious money away. Me, i have lots.. *temptation*!!!!!!!!

For my beloved gay part, it is her one and only XIAOZHU!!!!

Haha.. That's the way it is. Actually all these temptation actually kept us going. I guess. It can be good to a certain extend!! Anyway, it is time for me to start saving!!!! =p

Can money fall from the sky??!! Please!

Labels: tempting lo

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

bleahs 10:26

I am a LAZY bum!
Haha.. I am suppose to be formulating c codes for the heart murmur but here i am slacking my ass away. Bleahs.

Just came back from a big breakfast meal @ mac. Tho it is BIG BREAKFAST, the portion aren't really big. Anyway, my stomach is suddenly craving for more food. I can hear it calling out, "MORE FOOD!!".

Last night, i reach home at about 9plus or maybe 10pm. Wasn't in check with time. But i slept at 3. SO... NOW... It's FREAKING tired. Rainy day somemore. I WANT TO SLEEP LA... Was chit chatting on msn yday. Catching up with my people her and there, Gaypart and Charlotte.

Meeting Jasmine to go walk walk after my attachment today. =)

Charlotte says her friends are seeing me every where. Quite true, i do see one or two here and there. Sounds like my every move is being spied! Whahaha. Haha. Kidding. It's either they lucky or i unlucky. Whahahahahaha!

DIATILWY
A-MONOIO
R--T-VTU
L--A-EH-
I--L----
N--L----
G--Y----

Labels: Be truthful and honest

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

pms = emo 12:48

Water formed at the edged of my eyes? Haha. I wasn't crying. It was just a biological effect. My eyes are dirty. It's doing its usual cleaning up. =p

Guess in life, alot of the little things will not go according to our wishes. Something there is nothing that one can do but to wait. Time will wash every bit of unhappiness away. Time. It is a very powerful weapon. It can mend but it can destroy too.

This is complicated logic.

Time is an excuse too. Everyone always say (including me), "just give me time". Yep, we have all the time in the world to make little decisions that are going to affect our life in a way or another. But once the decision is made, there is no turning back. It is really like, if you broke the vase, but you pick up all the little pieces and fix it back, there are still cracks. Numerous uncountable cracks.

This is the reason why all second episodes will always be different.
Once bitten twice shy.

First time i felt so lost. To do what is right. To do what i want to do. Nothing seems to be working. But than sometimes it is just so unbelivebly nice.

It usually backfires when one tried too hard i guess. Let nature takes its course...

It's a new therapy now.
To sit there and keep my mind as blank as possible.
To keep my brain juice in check.

My temper is atrocious recently.
Maybe it's the increase secretion of hormones.
I had to keep it down and It takes alot of self control.
If i offended any people around, i am really sorry.

Anyway, i went to the dentist just now. Did some fillings here and there. Had numerous injections. Now my teeth are aching like !@#$%^&*. Having bad headache, teeth aching... AGRHH! I feel like dying. I had so many injections that even my nose went numb. like i dunno if i am breathing. 0.0

ZZZzzzZZZ

Labels: PMS equals EMO

Monday, November 12, 2007

... 09:07

First and Foremost...

THANKS GAY PART! =) For... You should know what. Lolz...
That crazy xiaozhu fan! Haha. If there is anything that make make that girl go crazy and smile big big, it's xiaozhu. =p

Weekends has just passed, but yet today i am still feeling lethargic and tired. OH MAN... What have i been doing?? But the fact is that i have did nothing. 0.o

Now i am back in my lab. 0.o I have dental appointment tml. Was still deciding if i should skip work or take leave. Haha. Faints. Ok, i shall be good and take leave. Haha.

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Friday, November 09, 2007

nothing better to do! 11:07

Love is in the eyes of the beholder.
Pain is in the eyes of the beholder.

Yep. That's the way it works.

Here i am sitting in my lab stonning abit. Thinking abit. Working abit.
Tml is weekends. YEAH!!!
Haha.

Was recalling what i have on saturday.
Suddenly it seems that i am having brain block.
Cannot remember. ARGHH!

Anyways, today jasmine is gg bugis.
BECAUSE... OF XIAOZHU.
Lolz. That girl...
I am always speechless when i see her so fong kuang about him.
But still, she is my best friend, my beloved gay part! Whahaha.

Nowadays, i have abit of problem.
I don seem to be able to concentrate.
My little brain seem to be abit cranky.

Labels: Slacking as always

Thursday, November 08, 2007

i miss u 23:02

Alrights...
Updates...

Basketball on Deepavali.
Yep, went back SRJC to play basketball with the oldies.
I wore my NYP jersey.
As i walked out from my house, i was looking at my own reflection through the many cars.
That reflection look familer.
Buts... When i started play, i suddenly lost the anticipation i had while walking.
Poof.
Guess i am too old.
Guess it is time for a some other sports.

I miss the times when jasmine and i went to facilitate camps.
I miss the times i had when i was in OBS.
I miss my active outdoor life.

Ever since i engage basketball in nyp, i seem to lose my outdoor fun.
But, i do enjoy basketball.
I do give my best in every single training and game.
At least i didn't leave any regrets.
I am still proud to be part of nyp basketball team.

JASMINE!! Haha.. Let's go OUTDOOR again! Hee..
My aunty is gg tibet to climb mountain in march.
Want come along??!!!

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Tml is friday. I so don feel like going to school tml. I am still in a holidaying mood.
I have been nua-ing at home the entire day. Tho so, i still miss my bed. hee.
*winks*

I am such a pig.

Haha..

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Monday, November 05, 2007

fish 12:11

That is pulau ubin. But i wasn't @ pulau ubin. I just went to some ulu pandan place to fish. To add on, there is totally no shade @ all, so i was so TOTALLY burnt. It was a beautiful Sunday morning.
Sunny...
Not cloudy...
Plus i have got car... =)

Fishing noob. Haha, hadn't manage to catch any fish. But had fun feeding the fishes. =)

Labels: Additional Effort marks

Friday, November 02, 2007

car 12:26

Friday! I love this weekday most. Because it is always the shortest day. Because it is just so close to weekends. Because.... =)

I drove Shumin, Shiying and momo to kovan for lunch. As promised. Haha.

Brought dou hua. =p
And my warm soya milk.
*yum*

One whole week with car.
Oh well, i am so going to miss the car when i return it on Sunday.
=(

Labels: CAR CAR CAR

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