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I got my posting... I am gg biomedical engineering in Nanyang poly... Oh well... Haha... Tot i couldn't get in... Hm...

Another boring day...

Sianz...

Pool again today... But with 2 diff ppl... Hazel and her friend... Haha... Abit wierd in how i know her... Budden... Now we are friends... Lolz...

Haha... Another mundane and boring day... IRAS again... *diao... Tml will be real busy i think... Cos probably, cheeky and huiting not gg work tml... *sigh* BUSY BUSY BUSY!! Now my throat is sore... My eyes are sore... Today morning, i just refuse to wake up can... I toss my phone into my pillow and slept... COs i damn phone alarm was ringing like shit... My mum had to wake me up 3 times before i woke up to wash up... *tired*

It's gg to be the end of the month... *grinz* Gg to count my pay le... Than on the 10th i'm gg to get my pay... Haha... Whooray!! The feeling of having money rules...! Lolz...

We went bishan after work... Me, gwen and jasmine... Went there for dinner... AT the foodcourt... Than saw this irritating person who keep staring at us... Feel like wai-ing her eye balls out can... SEE WAD SEE?! BITCH...

We met yuen in Bishan later on... That tai tai can... So AUNTY... Cannot tahan... Ate at macs again... All becos of yuen... Influence us sia... Lolz... Than we went supermarket cos yuen have to shop for groceries... SUdden realise that yuen become very motherly... Becos her parents are no longer in s'pore, she have to learn to take care of herself, her sis and her cousin... INDEPENDENCE... I envy her... Cos since young, i nv knew wad independent is... Maybe when i really have independence i might not want it?? Hmm.. who knoes... Gwen was commenting that it is very tiring to have to take care of ppl... It's like a big burden... Than i told gwen that i don mind take care of her*... 24/7 also can... I don mind cooking for her* everything... Yea... we agreed that it is xin fu to do little little stuffs for the person u like... Budden i will NEVER happen... At least for me... *shrugs*

gg off.....! Trying to push all thoughts out of my mind...

Haha... RUBBISH... I clear up my room for that dumb cheeky and she decided that she is not coming... *diao... Guess all is tired after the tedious phone listening job... Lolz... Should have went for pool man... Oh well... Too late and too bad... Haha...

Dunno y, but i am still online in this late hour... (12.46am) My eyes are closing... My eyelids are getting heavier every min... But dunno why, the damn com is attracting me towards it... I have to do my little art... *grinz* I brought this small sketch book which i started drawing in it... Just a little monkey business... Lolz... I LOVE ART... Budden... *sigh* Oh well... SHall satisfy myself on the small scale basis... I wanted to learn music too... I really have no idea why my family must object to all these... Haiz... *scratch head*

I took my final glance, than give a little sigh, and i trotted away, towards the opposite side... Haha... Guess wad i was looking at?

I can't wait for the 10th... I want my pay...!! haha... I am still deciding how i am gg to manage my money... Lolz...

• Must have money in the bank as savings
• a pair of shoes
• socks
• a bag
• sb
• good food...

Hiaz... I'm wondering how it will be tml again... Hectic??? I was actuali trying to find ppl to tok to thru sms... i typed my msg but didn't send cos didn't want to disturb anyone... So anyone that is free and bored, feel free to sms me k?? *grinz* -greatly appreciated...

Another day passes... Haha... should get my god damn posting soon... wonder wr i would end up in... Today, it's another hectic day... Don even feel like typing it down... Was at p.s again... This time is to eat dinner... Life's so sian... Haha...

It was a fucking day for a start... Had to do the stats in the morning... Than answer calls... Than do voicemail????!!!! I am totally drained can... Really drained... Anyway, it was huiting's bday yday... I brought her a cake... Of cos with cherries... haha... Cos i want to play with the stalk... I managed to tie it with my tongue in one min... Poor huiting can't tie... She was complaining that her mouth is very tired... The last stalk is with jasmine...

*a small entertainment for myself...

After work, we went for me... 4 of us... Jas,yanhui,yuen and me... It was really a stupid show can... I was laughing like some shit there la... I think i luff the loudest... *opps... Sorry yuan... Cos i was using her leg as my pillow to luff and hit... Hee...

A normal day... *smiles*

Oh ya... something big happen yday... I was trying to get down the damn stairs in my home... Guess wad, i suddenly black out and i woke up in pain at the end of the stairs below... *Sigh* My elbows are all bruised... My back hurts... My head got a big bum... So idiotic...

Haha... Just came back from compass point... brought wayne, huimin and aunty nancy out... The motive is to get wayne a new handphone... than ended up eating mos... Than in the library... COs huimin want to read books... She so book worm can... Lolz... Borrowed 2 books for her... Than sat down at the cafe and drink tea... Than the stupid wayne spill the damn hot tea... So malu... I like so aunty today can... Have to take care of the kids... Oh well... At least it occupies my time a little... Haha...

I saw wenna at compass point... Haha... Dunno why she cut her hair so short... Shhh... She use to be my eye candy... *grinz* Budden she look abit bit like a bung now... Lolz... Budden, still look cute la... Lolz...

At home... Wayne is experimenting with is sony ericson k300i... Than i infra-red my that act shuai pix to him... Than i made him put there as the wall paper... So funnie... Lolz... He was like saying that he is gg to show all his girls friends and say that he have a shuai kor kor... Lolz... *diao*

Oh ya... toking about that... I saw peng and xue at compass point... SO funnie, they say wayne look like me... Than i was like giving them the very disgusted look... Lolz...

Hmm... Than i saw yanhui at compass point too... AT the library... So intelliecture right? Our future teacher... Lolz...

I just woke up... My splitting headache have yet to go away... My head weighs a ton... Look like i got fever... But i don care...

Everything's going to be fine... *smiles*

Mam: Don need to worry about me... I am fine... *smiles* Sorry to trouble you again...
Gwen: Thankz... I am fine... No worries...

Alright... Going movie on monday?? I have no idea... *sigh* Wad is there to watch?? I have lots of vcds at home which i have yet to watch... With my splitting headache, i really dunno how to watch man... *sigh* Some other day bahz...

I smiled...
I mock at myself...
It's total...
It's the end...
*shrugs*

I went town AGAIN... Yupz... And POOL again... This time is with cheeky peanut and huiting...

Alot of things happened, but i just don feel like typing it down...

Was LATE... Suppose to meet renee, jasmine, yanhui @ 2.00pm... But i reach there at 2.15pm... Budden, guess wad... Everyone's late... I'm the earliest can... Dunno why i always had to wait for ppl... Haha... Budden... Sometimes it's a joy waiting for ppl... Esp if the person is someone special...

We apent most of our time waiting for ppl... Than we went pool... Yuen came to meet us... Plus carmen... Xiaobai and kang wen(issit? don remember the name) were there too... Haha... Played pool for like more than 3hours... Suddenly realised that my pool not bad... Lolz... Oh well... Lolz...

Renee saw her#... Haiz... Tears starts flowing... See her lidat, i also feel sad for her... Forget about her la... *smiles* I also dunno wad to say... *sigh*

Woke up early in the morning and i had to knock my head on the wall... *faints* Now got a big and painful bump on the top of my small head... *sigh*

That's my good morning... Lolz... Oh well... Today i am gg town AGAIN... Haha... Wonder wad i sho wear sia... Wear like go market? Wear nice nice shuai shuai or just the normal me?? Hmm... Lolz... Let's see my mood later...

Yday actually wanted to go rogue... But at least, we didn't go... In the end, me and jasmine went for pool... *grinz* Yday i dunno if it was luck or skills or whether my mood good, but all my ball very nice... Hee... Budden, by default, i still lose to jasmine... Lolz... Oh well, it's not a matter of winning or losing... It's a matter of enjoying the game... *smiles*

After pool, we went to stroll ard town... In the end, from dhoby ghourd we walked to cinneleisure for pool than we went far east... We ate Long John... Than we stroll ard LEVEL one... Jasmine brought the chip munk thingy for weibin... So sweet rite?? Haha... Oh well... Than we decided to slack ard... SO we sat at LEVEL one de seats there... Guess wad, i lie on the wall than i fell asleep... Suddenly realised how tired i was... Haha... SUddenly woke up and decided to eat waffle icecream... 1st time have craving for icecream... COs i don like icecream...

Today... I made honey and lemon drink in the morning... Cos when i woke up, i have no voice at all... *god* Lucky the remedy helps... *grinz* At least i can maintain my voice until 5pm... Hee... Anyway, we brought alot of food during lunch... We brought 75bucks worth of biscuit and crackers and tidbits... It's all in my working booth...! So fortunate can... Iras was quite boring... Nothing really much happens... *sigh* No cheap thrill for me sia...

Kei all of a sudden started to sms me again... *faints* Sometimes really cannot stand him... So wierd sierd de can... Lolz... But he is quite a nice guy la... Just that i dunno why he like bungs... He sms me and called me to be his man????!!! *so diao* I told him that i like girls... Lolz... Which is like so obvious?? Lolz... Gwen saw the sms he sent... She luff until she faint sia... Lolz... SO malu...

Today we have bball match with our juniors... Now i smell of blood... My toe de skin drop out... And it's bleeding... I think it is quite bad cos my socks is stained... And it is painful... I tot i crack my toe or something... didn't know it was so serious... But oh well... It'll heal... Lolz... I suffered from some scratch and brusies but all was fine... *grinz* After bball, we went hougang mall to eat dinner... Yanhui brought me a new binder... hee... cos she owe me 1... Haha...

Didn't go Zouk with renee, yansze and ruiyi today... Tml got work... I bet i wun be able to wake up cos unlike the other time, i have no incentive to wake up already... Yanhui was asking if we wana go Rogue tml... I am still deciding tho... Should i? But i quite broke sia... *sigh*

ALright... Haha... Another day passes just lidat... Life goes on... Whether i get wad i want... My posting is gg to be out soon... Wondering where i will go... Met jerome online... She was like say that we find one day go out and date xiao mei mei?? So *diao can... Haha...

I STILL HAVE TO ATTEND TO CALLS TML!!! *faints... Jasmine so lucky can... She doing paper work... I am sick... Had a very bad sore throat... Duuno how i can talk tml... LOLZ...

I went shopping spree today...! Haha... spent most of my money le sia... Lolz... Brought this super nice shirt from P.O.A... Super nice sia... Checked again... Lolz... But the price is abit steep... lolz... Actually wanted to buy the pants there, but don have my size... Too bad... Got 2 polo tees.... Plus 3 plain white tees... haha... Had to buy sports bra soon... After 10th April i will have money le... My NIKE sb... I'm coming! Lolz... Have to buy a few more tees and boxers... Oh ya... and shoes... Lolz... Slippers too... Lolz...

*sigh*

I lost the colours i used to see...
Everything seem to be black and white...
I am waiting fot this someone to light a light in my life...
I'm waiting for this someone to brings colours to my eyes...

I'm blind...
I dunno where to go...
My heart is in a mess...
I felt so restricted...



Once there was a little child... Everything was arranged for her since she was born... She was arranged to go numerous tuitions... Attend numerous different type of lesson... She can never do wad she wanted... All she need to do is to achieve academic excellence... But does anyone know wad she really wanted? Does anyone know wad she enjoyed? Wad's the use of having a heart but unable to follow it?
When this little girl grows up, she turn into someone that no one knew... Her mum dunno wad she have become... Only she herself know... Who she really was, was kept deep inside her heart... Never to be able to dig it up... It only surfaces at the darkest hour of the night, when she is alone... She promise herself that she would be strong... She promise herself that no matter wad, she wun cry... She believed in herself... But who else does?
Why has she become lidat? The answer lies with herself... Sometimes she tried finding love from somewr else... But it didn't suceed... A failure once was enough for her... Because of her past, she believe that everyone is the same... Same as her parents... Love is nothing but just a word... It wasn't until she really fell in love to understand wad love is... Love hurts... But at least it is a wonderful feeling... But How many times can love be followed? Wad she love cannot be done... Who she love cannot be together... She really don understand wad love is for... maybe love is just to be felt..... who knows.... *shrugs*
Who else knows the pain the little girl have at heart since she was young except for herself... Maybe this is the way life works... Everyone faces their own problems... The survival of the fittest...

Oh well... Another day passes just lidat... Felt quite usless... Maybe i shld just leave it... Really leave it... *sad smile* Oh well... What is in my head now?? I REALLY DUNNO...! Does it matter??? I guess not...

Hmm... Great that she* receive wad i intend to give... Hopefully she* likes it... Have been saying that i sho let her* go... Have been saying that she* sho let me go... So much do i really mean it?? Everytime i quieten down and my mind went wild, i just can't help it but to miss her and think of her... Really really want her to be mine... Buts... Oh well... It's not possible... I told jasmine, maybe one day she might accept me... It's actually deceiving myself to make myself feel better... *sigh* WHen i see couple ard, i am kinda jealous... Why can ppl be together but not me... But i can't say anything much either... Cos... I had a great r/s that time...

Can't help it but to feel sad....

I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU*...
i just hope you* can give me a chance... That is a hope tho... Oh well... Haha... wadever...

Alright... After waking up, i feel alot better... As i would always say, TML WILL BE A BETTER DAY... Yuppz... This is the way right... *sigh*

Another boring day it would be...

*smiles always.....

"the moment u kissed HER, u noe he is the ONE..thats when everything ard u gets hazy and ur vision is onli u n HER...and u noe that is the person u wanna kissed for the rest of ur life...it makes u wanna laugh n cry at the same time..for u r so happie to haf this beautiful gift but yet afraid to lose it"

Saw this from somewhere... Oh well... I think it really makes sense... But this wun happen... At least, i wun happen to me... *Sigh* I'm meant to be alone i guess... Maybe being alone is the best... Wad's the point of having r/s? Wad's the point of giving your heart to someone? Wad's the point of love?? I AM SCARED...

Was quite fed-up when i see the blog... After being with me for so long, she still don understand me at all... Oh well... Don feel like explaining anymore! Yes, i am a jerk...! I'm a bastard! I'm a asshole...! SO girls, pls all get away from me k... DOn ever like me... don come near me...........

To you* : I'm not qualified to fall in love... I'm not qualified to love you... It's not worth it... FInd someone better bahz... Yea... You should let go of me... I'm really not worth it... I wanted to have you... Even up to Now... Nothing changes... The only thing is me loving you more... But to think of it, i shouldn't have even thought of it... Wad love am i talking about when i am such a fucking idiot...

My world is crumpling down on me... Yea... Smiles... I am wondering how long i can continue to smile... Yes... i am fine... Really fine... I hate myself... I wish i could disappear... I hate the world i'm living in now... I simply cannot stand it at all le... Wad the fuck am i doing?

Getting drunk or sleepy is the best... Only when i am drunk or when i am asleep, i can have you*... Cos it is in my dreams... You*'re too NICE for me... You*'re too good for me... You* deserve someone better... But still... *ilu

Okies... Just return not long ago from bugis... Haha... Me and jas went to find Renee together... Than after that we decided to join renee and june... Lolz... SInce we have nothing on ma... So might as well... Lolz... Anyway, it was kinda funnie to have that 2 jokers around... Really cant help it but to keep laughing at them... First, we went P.S to acc renee and June buy zigsaw... Than we were shopping around... Okay, actually, it was renee and june shopping ard la... Lolz... They were looking at skirts and top, so me and jas tagged along... Than June tried on this 79bucks wrap skirt... It simply fits her la... I think she really look nice in it... But it was too ex... So she never buy... Renee tried on one too... Look quite nice as well... In the end, all nv buy can... Lolz... Than we shop ard... I saw this checked shirt from POA... I think it look damn nice la... But i never buy... I no money liao... Budden, i brought a pair of slippers for my mama... *grinz* An guess, she likes it... Lolz... Anyway, after P.S, we made our way to Bugis market to look look ard... The June ar... Very funnie can... SHe took this extra huge pair of glasses than wear it... SHe look like mickey mouse la... Lolz... SO cute... I took a photo of that though... Lolz... After walking for quite some time, we decided to eat... Cos renee and june hungry sia... In the end, i ended up eating as well... Lolz... At the coffeeshop, that two girls ar, took my phone and took lots of pic... Than they pose diff diff pose can... SO FUNNIE... Luff until me and jasmine nearly die las...

A nice saturday indeed... Lolz...

Survey... Haha...

1. are u serious when it comes to relationships?
--->Hmm... Duh... Unless it's a fling la...

2. are you afraid of commitments?
--->Used to be a commitment phobic... But for her*, anything is worth it...

3. are u a risk taker?
--->Wad do you think?

4. wat can u say abt long distance relationships?
--->It's LOVE that counts...

5. can u luv a person hu doesnt love u?
--->Yes... But it hurts... It really do...

6. do actions speak louder than words?
--->duh... Sweet talk is short-lasting... Actions last forever...

7. hav u felt/found true love?
--->Yes... Her*

8. how can u say that a person luvs you?
--->I need confirmation... I need assurance... I need to feel....

9. are you good in handling relationships?
--->Have to admit that i am not good at it... But i tend to let go and suffer in silence...

10. willing to give everything?
--->depends on how much i love the person... For her*, everything....

11. best thing u' ve learned from relationship?
--->Exclusive to me... Lolz...

12. do u demand ur luv 1 to change into somethingthat she's not?
--->No... Be who you are for yourself cos i love the way you really are...

13. wud u let go of some1 u love?
--->Yes, if she is happier this way...

14. are u a one woman/man & vice versa?
--->Yupz... One at a time... But can't help it to have little crushes here and there... *grinz*

15. Is sex important in a relationship?
--->wad do you think?

16. how do u express ur luv to someone?
--->Just like the way i want... Confirmation, assurance and feelings...

17. wat is the major reason of a break up?
--->For most... Feelings fade...

18. most important ingredient in a relationship?
--->Love.... Love.... And more LOVE....

19. ever regret loving someone?
--->No... Love is wonderful...

20. one thing u hate abt love?
--->Love hurts....

21. things u like about love?
--->Sweet.......

22. worst thing u did to a love one?
--->I'm always nice... *winkz*

23. are you in love?
--->Yes...

24. with whom?
--->My special someone... Her*

25. do u have a bf/gf?
--->SIngle at the moment... But not avaliable... Cos i am waiting for this special someone of mine...

26. why?
--->My special someone don want me... *sobz*

27. are you a hopeless romantic?
--->Hmm... Ownself find out loz... Lolz...

28. do you get tired of loving?
--->Yes... But i can't stop loving you*...

29. who has changed your view about loving?
--->*shrugs*

30. are you paranoid when in love?
--->Yea... But i keep it in check with myself...

Why is everybody so troubled lately?????

Everyone in our basketball team seem to be very troubled... All over the same source - LOVE... My goodness...

Really hope everyone will feel better soon... I really miss my carefree days last time... Really.... I miss it very badly... *sigh*

I feel like drowning myself in my bed while sleeping... My goodness...

Maybe occupying myself might be a better choice than slacking ard and let my mind wonder into the forbidden section of my heart...

Yupz... Got up at 7am today... So stupidly early can... *sigh* I forgot to put my retainers again... *sigh* I slack in my room until 9am b4 i went down to eat my breakfast... I decided that i sho iron my clothes... Haha... SO crumpled can... *faints* I have no where to go today... Dunno where to go either... Wonder how renee is... Guess now she don want to talk to me le... All because of the idiotic person... wad the hell can... Thankz sia...

Early in the morning, sms her*... Dunno wad happen... She is so fierce and irritated and upset... *sigh* Dunno over wad... I like kinda a failure de huh... As usual, i am an insensitive bum... *sigh* I have no means to make ppl feel better... Everytime i try, it make the person feel worst... I guess i sho just quit trying so hard... Haiz... Just hope she can cheer up... Let's hope she can find someone better that could cheer her up unlike me... *sigh*

*in anyway, just want to tell you* that i'll always be there whenever u need it... 24/7... *ilu

oooo... I dyed my hair with jas today... Went far east after work... Haha... dye plus trim abit... $69... Quite ok bahz... Haha... Damn it lo... I spent more than 100 bucks today...(plus the hair) *faints* *sigh* But the hair is quite good la... lolz...

Today, i went work in the morning and i nearly got stressed out... For god sake can, i have to do stats and listen to phone calls at the same freaking time... Goodness... Lucky the phone call today not alot... I still got time to monkey about... Haha... SO sian... Don have xiaobin ard to joke with me... Miss her can... But lucky still got khala, saron, nana, LANCOMe and huiting to acc me monkey about... *grinz* Love them so much... All my "neighbours"... I got 59 calls today if i am not wrong... At least lesser than yday's... Now have to answer calls alone... SO sad... SO lonely... *sigh*

After doing my hair than we went long john to makan... Than got this bunch of GIRLS keep staring at me and jasmine... But they were ignored... Lolz... Me and jas just continue with our food... *diao* OoH... we went to town to find Renee... But i see june instead... Renee not working late... Lolz...

Anyway, i hope she* will like wad i have installed for her*... *grinz* Tho it cost me a bomb, but i think it is worth it if i know she is happy when she receive it... *imu... Donletmegoplease... *ilu

Oh well... Guess wad... In then end, i went clubbing... Haha... We went zouk... With yanhui, renee, yuen, ruiyi, angelina, yanshi and angelina's friend... At first we went to the kopitam to drink beer... Haha... Than met with a nuts case uncle... Scare me to death...

Was so tired... Woke up at 6.15 than rushed down to meet her* to pass her* some stuffs... Lolz... Was meeting her at 7... Whoa... My eyes can barely open... I took a cab down than i just sat at the stairs and sleep... *tried* I onli manage to nap for 1 and a half hours... Than i have to report to work le...

I manage to keep myself awake for the day... Really proud of myself...

*Reallymissingyou*... Suddenlyfeltthatitotallycannotletgoatall... Cosican't stoplovingyou*... you*willalwaysbeinmyheart... iwillneverletyou*go... cosiloveyou*... you*areinmyheartandsoul... iknowwecan'tbetogether... butijusthopeonedayamiraclemightjustbefallonus... *ilu

YOU ARE NICE... ALWAYS NICE... *grinz*

Why am i so matured today?? Haha... Cannot stand myself man... *shake head*

Alright... 2nd day of belaying... My hand got all the rope burns and stuffs... *pain* Hmm... Dunno how i am gg to work tml... Lolz... I am gg to bandage up my hand... I belayed this cute little girl today... She so cute... When she see me she'll keep laughing... Than i ask her why... She is will shake her head... Than her friend told me she is wondering if i am a guy or girl... Haha... So funnie... Than i told her than i am a girl... Since than on, she keep looking and smiling or laughing at me... So cute... Than when i call her, she will run away... Wad a cute little girl...

Suddenly i felt relieve... I dunno why... I suddenly seem to be able to see the clear scope of life... Of my life... Of wad is important... Of what i need to do... Camp is good... It make me realise alot of stuffs... I love camps...

Hmm... Sometimes in life, we wun always get wad we want... But we have to learn to let go... To move on... Even if our heart don move on, we'll still be force to move on... Haha... That's the cruelty of life... In life, there is no forever... there's always an expiry date for everything... THIS IS LIFE...

Haha... Guess the most important thing is that, one must know what really is, in his or her heart... No matter wad they can deceive others, they still can't deceive themself... Always be happy...

Hmm... Today i went for belaying... Haha... It was a hot day... Realli dislike kids can... They are so monkey... My god... Than i dunno wad their ears are for... My god can... Feel like tie-ing them up on the damn rope walls... God... I belay until my hand got blister sia... *pains* Tml i think i am gg to suffer a worst fate can... Dunno if i doing rope wall or high ropes... If doing high rope than i confirm plus chop will turn black de can... Than my ANNA will have a black cow... Lolz...

Anyway, realli touched today... My anna is so concern about me... And my anna knows me so well... Lolz... That anna... Oh well... No worries... My heart is not bleeding... At least not for now... Even if it is, i will have special powers to stop it from bleeding... *grinz* Must have trust in me... But i'm really fine... Don worry...

Haiz... Me and jasmine in the same dilemma... SO sad right?!! Wad's wrong with us latey? *shake heads* I think, now, my situation is alot better than hers... Poor jasmine... Hope she is fine...

*grinz* Quite happy today... Sort of finally make things clear...
*to you: No worries, wadever it is, you wun lose me... I can understand how u feel... I use to feel this way too... Maybe lidat, life would be better for the 2 of us... Must stay happy k? *smile big big*
*ilu
*imu

i told myself that i shouldn't be unhappy....
i told myself to stay strong...
i told myself to look on the bright side of life...
i told myself that life is in my hands...
i told myself to be patient...
i told myself that one day, it's will be a yes...

So i will continue to wait.....

In the meanwhile, let's just be who we are... *smiles*

Wad a day... A hot day... But i just can't make up my mind to go swmming, bball or just stay at home... So tired... But i just can't continue to sleep... I slept at 2plus yesterday to finish wad i had to finish... - gluing up everything... And framing them up... *tried*

Hmmm... So damn bored at home can... Nearly died... Haha... Sho call jsamine out to go chilling since it's such a hot day can... But i guess i shouldn't go tanning today cos tml got belaying... Confirm plus chop i will be super duper tan... Lolz... I love my camp job... Budden... I don like the ppl there... *sigh* I don really like IRAS... But i love the ppl there... *grinz* Life is such a contradiction can... Lolz...

Oh well... i think i should enjoy my life while i can... Cos if i'm accepted to poly, my school will be starting real soon... Than soon... It will be all studying again... Oh well... I want go laselle..!! *pout* I have no idea why my mama don allow me to go...

SHould i go clubbing with the bballers on wed??? Haiz... But thurs still got work lehz... Dunno la... *headache* Shall decide Later... *grinz*

----imu....

Oh well... Hmm... wad did i did today...? Work up and stared at my phone... Opps, just realised that i forgot to ask the rest of the ppl if they want to go clubbing... Hee... So sorry... But lucky, renee call yanhui to sms everyone le... Got 2 messages and 1 miss call on my phone... Hoping that it was her* but, oh well... haha... All was from renee...

Was using the com in the morning... Than talked to qin and peng... Hope that qin will be alright... Quite worried about her... Than after that, i rushed down to town to meet yuen, renee and gwen... Was late... hee... We went shopping... Actually is they went shopping... Everytime go into those girl girl shop... But can't blame... I'm the one that is diff from them huh? Lolz... We were at wisma... Than went taka... Than cinne... In the end, we ended up at cinne playing pool... Lolz... My pool sux today... I guess mood realli affects my pool skills... GOD... Lost to the tyco renee can... Jasmine came to meet us abit later... As usual, she woke up at like 12??!! Lolz... DUnno wad she did with piggy the night befor again... Lolz... Yuen went off after pool to meet her bedok friends at bugis... SHe wanted us to acc her there, but we refused... Lolz... SO we stay around town... Gwen went home after dinner at PS... SO it is left with me, jas and renee... In the end, we ended up at taka outside there... We sat there and tok... Since renne had to wait for june... Just coincidentaly, the 3 of us were troubled... We were like talking... Abit funnie to actualli think about it now... *sigh* We sat there for hours... That is a good place to slack... Lolz...

Hmm... decided to go home... I am gg home... Got things to do at home sia... *grinz* It's a secret... Don ask me wad... Hmm... I think i have been very immatured lately... Oh well... After slacking my life in town, i think i have thought it through very clearly...

I will wait... I will wait until u really say no... I will say nothing but to wait... *ilu n imu... Iwillalwaysbebyyourside.

Iras was all about gossiping again... MINMIN AGAIN.... Hahahahaha... No one wants to partner minmin... So i am like their lifeboat lidat... When minmin want to partner them, they will pull me and say that they are with me... Lolz... Xiaobin very funnie can... So kpo de... Very aunty also... She keep checking my handphone... Check from head to tail... *faintz* Haha... Ask this ask that... *sigh* No privacy sia... Lolz... Than sharon and khala was looking at my IC photo... They were shocked... And that commented that i was so cute now... *grinz* Than the assessment manager came over and say that i look like a pri 6 kid... Haha...

I WANT TO WATCH MOVIE CAN... No one acc me... i guess it's left with me and jasmine... *sigh* AT least got jasmine... Lolz...

Today, we went to play pool... hee... We were at cinneleisure... Than charlotte and jac came to find us... Dinner was next... At hereen... billy bombers(not sure of the damn spelling). I think i have food rejection sickness again... I couldn't finish my food... *sad*

Was suddenly thinking about it.... Haha.... Realli dunno wad i am doing.... Alright.... What i can say is that i'll wait.... *winkz* Just don ignore me can le.... *ilu... So sorry about all the things i have done... I shall be patient and mature from now on... *smiles*

I'm be alright.... *smiles*

What the fuck am i doing?

Haha... Today Iras is all about gossiping about minmin... It's so dumb... They are discussing if minmin is str8... WHen the fact that most of them tot me and jas were str8... Funnie can... Sort of tell them that we are not... Lolz... Weibin, limin, huiting noes... The rest i don think so... They resume that we are str8... Lolz... With our hair lidat??? GOd...

What's with being cr8k or str8?? Isn't it the same? It's still love that we are talking about... In anyway, love hurts... It realli does...

After work, we ate at BK... Haha... Than we are suppose to go home... In the end, me and yanhui went shopping... Main motive is to find a small and thin binder... But in the end, we brought tees and i brought a pair of jeans... Haha... *spending money again* WHile we shop ard, we went to visit renee... She damn funnie la... Wanted to go clubbing nxt wed than trying to find a way to go... Cos yy don let her go... Love is very restricting as well... *sigh* That's for her case... Lolz... Than on our way back, i decided to talk to yanhui... Realli feel very hard up... Glad that she actualli understand how i feel...

LOVE

I saw her one fine day...
I dunno why but i just felt like protecting her...
I helped her with all my might...
But little did i realised that i had fall in love with her...
I fell in love with everything about her...
I told myself not to...
But...
I still did...
I love her.....

oh well... Haha... IRAS again... Woke up at 5am... Than went for breakfast and than go to work... More phone calls... More playing and kidding around... Cheeky is really funnie la... We suspected min min to be bi... ahaha... Than cheeky trying to find out from min min... Than cheeky told her, "how can u like benjamin and lucky at the same time? Liking woman is not correct. It's very wrong. It's not good for mental health............. DOn touch huiting and grace, they are mine!" SO funnie... I was luffing like shit la... Cheeky is so cute and funnie... But little did she know that me and jas are not str8... Didn't tell her cos i guess she wun accept it... lolz... But huiting know about us though... lolz... The phone system was down for 1hr... When i am free, i just stared at my phone screensaver... Wierd right? lolz... Although i am at work, half of the the time, my mind wondered off... *winkz*

ALright... Tml have to start work le... But at least tml is a day worth waiting for... Hee... At least for the morning... *winkz* hmm... I applied for poly already... See how the applications goes lo...

Went to watch the NY vs SR match... Oh well, wad can i say...? SR MUST JIAYOU!!!! Play with ur heart and soul... Mind above body...

*Anyway, was realli realli touched by wad you say... It realli make me feel that everything is so worth it... If there is anything, i'll always be there... *winkz*

Haiz... SO SAD... Dunno y, but just can't help it to feel sad... Must say first. This sad is not becos of results... Guess there are always times when one couldn't get wad they realli wanted... *sigh* Oh well, i gg to apply for poly today, came in so early just to print all my certs n stuffs... Actualli wanted to sleep longer, but yday my uncle's printer no ink... He just changed the cartridge... Sadded... But in fact, i woke up at 6 plus today. I AM NUTS. Yday i slept at 2plus can... *faints* Alright, my eyes are gg to be damn small today... Later, i'm meeting the bballers to go NYP... AT 10am... Haha... I think NYP will be filled with SRJCians...

*sigh* Our juniors will be having a bball match with NYJC today in sch... I'm still wondering if i should go down wor... See how 1st...

*sigh* *sigh* *sigh*...........................................................

I LOVE YOU... I REALLY DO...

Yday, the few of us went chomp chomp to eat... Haha... Nice food, but crowded... Yuen, yanhui, ena, gwen, jasmine and me were there. So nice to have everyone luffing together, talking and eating. *sigh* Soon we'll be busy with our own life again...

Anyway, realli wanted to thank cheeky peanut. She help me found a course that i like in laselle. Buts... My mum don allow me to go... Wad's so bad about arts? *sigh* Everything also cannot... What am i suppose to do?! ANyway, i applied for poly le... Just study lo.............

Thanks qin... Got realli touched by ur sms... Haha... Realli... I AM FINE. It's just my mum that is not. Must thank my anna too... *winkz*

ANd my animal farm... Haha... we are on the same boat. But i realli hope u can get into uni.
To gwen, just do wad u like bah... Ignore ur mum.
To yuen, just try bah... *peace*
To ena, wadever ur decision, must remember us k? haha..
To my bball seniors, esp runli and char, thanks for ur encouragement. *smiles*

To sleepyhead... Take ur time and think. I think that person will wait for you. *winkz* Just an advise, follow ur heart n be happy. *smiles*

Guess wad... I just quarreled with my mum... She thinks i nv study... So good... All these while pacifying her is just nothing... All the while, i'm not studying... My Cs is drop from the sky de... She seriously made me dread house.... Than she say i don respect her... The point is, wadever i told her, she also still say i nv study... Still say i always go play... Than wad's the point of talking??

Wadever it is... This is stupid la... I also dunno wad she wants... Now i also dunno wad i want. SO NICE.

Everybody thinking of wr to go now... Where am i gg? What am i gg to do?

Guess i should just go poly first... Than wadever things that i'll be doing than slowly go achieve it... That should be the right way huh... Hmmm... Guess so...

Oh well... I got my A'level result... Haha... I failed my math and GP... But i got C for my chem and bio... SO sad right... Oh well... My mum thinks i nv study. SO nice of her... If i nv, where did my 2 Cs come from...? Than she wants me to repeat. WTH.... I told her so many times that i don want to step into SRJC AGAIN!!! For god sake... Can't she just let me go poly...? Anyway, poly application ends on monday. Most probably i studying biotech... But dunno can get in anot... So sad right. Haiz... See how first lo...

I woke up at 5am yday. It's not becos i cant sleep. *grinz* Just realise the buses in the morning very slow sia. I nearly late. LOLZ... But lucky i'm on the dot. This time, i no need to accompany the old folks in the park exercise liao. Haha... So funnie right?

Sometimes love is very retarded huh... Lolz...

Sleepyhead: If u love her, than just go for it... If the person love u too, she will also miss u badly. She will also want u... Give the person a chance to love u. *tell her

Charlotte: In life, one have to move on... One have to let go... Since young, i'm trained not to let my emotions get over my head and body. But that is always very hard to achieve. Buts, i still try to do it. U knoe y? It's because emotions will makes things very complicated. Anyway, i just hope u remember ur promise. Must be happy... *smiles*

Ok ppl... One thing big happen... I broke up with charlotte... Oh well... guess it is me and my fault huh... Don want to explain alot also... But glad that charlotte is ok now... She seem to be strong and holding on...

Okies... Work at IRAS is still fine... Lately yuen, yanhui and gwen joined us too... Haha... Now i've start picking up calls already... Got a senior TTA to help me tho... Haha... Suddenly realised, actualli typical s'porean cant listen to simple instructions. I told one taxpayer 7 times b4 it got to him wad i am try to say. *god* -shake head- Oh ya, go IRAS sometimes very fine de... got to know of cheeky peanut, huiting, stone, aisah, fareena, lancome and minmin. Tho min min abit wierd la... but overall, it was a fun grp... Haha...

Life seems so wierd now... Haha... dunno why... Oh well... SO complicated somemore.... *sigh*

Latey, i barely goes to bball... WHY? simple. I am starting to dislike bball le... Felt so disappointed when i go sr to see those junior play... Really lo, i see le like no meaning lidat... *shrugs* Sorry miss rivera... i guess is generation gap... no idea...

Loving you
Missing you
Forever
Letting go


GRACE.ZAVE.HEIKE

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LOVES

Her
all my friends
my family
bball
sentosa
tea
chip & dale
my com
my hp
chatting
slacking
chilling
music
dancing
L word
...........





[tanyaqi]
[NYPBBALL] [38gang]
[Ruiyi] [Deanna] [Yuenyan] [yanhui] [yansze] [Gwen] [Yenling] [Bamboo] [cheryl] [Renee]
[Jasmine] [Vanessa] [Fluffy] [Felicia]
[Animal farm] [charlotte] [Guihe] [Pam] [Lazykitty] [Sharon] [cong'cong]
[Anna] [serene] [Shirley] [WanQin] [Curry fishhead] [jerome]
[emily] [xiaobin]
[Cal'liling] [momo]
[Leanne]
[yunyun] [foen] [tangen] [xingting] [yawen] [weird] [xianglin] [jaslee] [zp] [stevie] [elaine] [tangen] [chunli] [jintong] [loo bird bird] [Ivana] [Yanling]

keep them in clouds if you want.