Grace's

It's lunch time.
I'm feeling miserable. VERY indeed.
Haha. My stomach is hurting.
It's like a sharp pain.
No appetite.
Sitting here endulging in self pity?
Nah, it's just that i totally don feel like putting food into my mouth.
Acting like nothing happen, i am doing work.
Keeping myself busy seems like a better choice.
I don want to go home.
What for?

My aunt ask me if i am alright.
But the tears just flow.
I have no idea why it come out.
It's just pain leh.
Whatever la. Just pain chui. Full stop.

Just a miserable empty day i guess.

Feels like i am living in a world with no sun and rain.

So pain so pain.
Where exactly?
No idea.

Labels: just alone

Thursday, March 27, 2008

What else can i say? 21:43

I just reached home.
I guess i've walked half of Singapore.
Haven eaten anything since lunch. I am having gastric attack again.
But i seriously don't feel like putting any food into my mouth.

Work is horrible.
For a miserable 7bucks per hour, i think i am overworking.
I hate work!
I hate the OT!
The only thing that keeps me going on is money i guess.

5 days.
All the plans...
All the hope...
All the... Oh well.

What do i believe in?
What do i want?

Nothing but you.
Do you know?

The water droplets came down huge.
But who cares.
Looking at the beautiful hazelnut macrons.
I saw those beautiful notes that i wanted to get.

****

Haha. I really can't help it any longer.
It wasn't emo.
It is just kinda uncontrollable.

Labels: crap

Sunday, March 23, 2008

what is this? 23:43

Today.
I kinda awaken from the little stupor i was in all these while.
Patience. It's a virtue that i never had.
But it is something i am getting to acquired.
The world does not revolve around me. It revolve around everybody.

I felt lighter than before.
More relax.
Less easily affected.

Is it only for today? I hope not. Haha.

Anyway. I was out for the entire day.
Meet jas, renee and reni at clark quay.
They were at sentosa in the morning. Haha.
We had ramen at some authentic ramen stall with very little variety but yet the noodle and the soup is good.
But the place sure is cold.
Anyway i had my fill of vege since all 3 of them of hates it.
Haha...
Did some catching up with renee. Cos we took the same bus to serangoon. Haha.
Went Haato to look for pris and yaqi.
Bought a waffle back for my aunty.

Somewhere somehow, someone something seems to be tearing me apart. =(

Labels: it's a blank

Saturday, March 22, 2008

just something 19:53

One cannot control love. One does not choose whom he or she will love or, when he or she will love.I believe in destiny. To love someone is not a planned situation; it is an incident that is destined to happen. But not all love that seemed to be perfect has happy endings. I know that. And i know that you know that as well. But i really hoped that ours will be an perfect happy ending.

Love conquers all. What if we are just not meant for each other? What if our parents are the hindrance? What if the world is objecting to us?

Will you choose the one you love and fight for her even though you know that it is against the will of your parents? Each one of us has priorities. What is yours?

It is surely difficult to forget someone that has been a very special part of your life. Not all love which seemed to be perfect can have a happy ending. Not all lovers are successful in fighting for their love. Happy endings are just for fairytales.

And the truth,

Love surely hurts.

Are you willing to bear the hurt walk towards the path of fairytales with me? Can we be the successful pair?

Labels: fairytales

I hate rainy days 18:42

Incorrigible
Disenchanted
Icky
Oppressive
Thrown

Speechless.
My fault?
It's my fault that i don like to wait.
*shrugs*

I am a morbit.
And i am sorry that i am one.

Labels: Withered scarecrow

Work work work 14:46

So fast. Today is SATURDAY and tml is SUNDAY already. 0.o
Haha. Than the next day will be Monday!
Which means, i am starting work soon!
Super Duper sian.
Suddenly that full time job of mine isn't that appealing to me at all.

*sigh*

Nevermind! I gg out with jasmine on Sunday. Hee. =)
Gay part!! Got miss me?!
Whahaha!
Let's go chill out and stuffs. Hee.

Anyway, today is horrible. Having cramps all over.
Basically, it is THAT day of the month.
The day that always drains me dry.Virtually and literally.

I have lots of things in mind that i want and need.
SO HORRIBLE.
But i am absolutely broke!
When is my pay going to come in???!!!

Oh man. Please come in soon lah.
Really need it!

Labels: I need time

Friday, March 21, 2008

GREEN 00:13

A week of hectic work.
BUSY BUSY BUSY.

Finally, tml is holiday. It is truly a GOOD FRIDAY.
Life has been rather smooth i guess. *grins*
I am meeting my gay part this Sunday evening. =)

I'm missing EVERYTHING.
Work is taking a huge part of my time.
I'm sorry.
Yet i can't stop working.
It is a obligation already.
The only thing i can do now is to make the best out of everything.

Sorry gwen, yuan and jasmne. I couldn't make it for the slam movie preview.
Hope you girls have fun! =)

Oh ya, i miss out on the fact that i went SMU for an interview with bachelor of Social Science.
Haha!
If i get in, i will be government!
VOTE FOR GRACE!
Whahahaha!

Labels: always in my heart

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

A smile over... 21:05

Look at the time!
Yep.
I am still in the office at TUAS.
OT.
At least i got to earn money. =)

So much so for keeping myself busy. Now i have nothing left to do. But yet i still have to be here. My aunt is still working. I am waiting for her to take the sponsered cab. *shrugs* So, no choice. I have to just stay around and STONE.

It was a horrible day to begin with i guess.
Legthargic and tired.

I think life have too much choices. So much so that we no longer enjoy the luxury of choice. Human character are part of a choice too.

example: you choose to be proud. you choose to be hardworking or lazy. you choose to be emotional. you choose to be egolistic. you choose to stand strong and firm. you choose to give up.

SEE. So so so so so many choices. SO, which is a good choice? Which is wrong? I guess it doesn't matter which is correct or wrong. What is important is that you don't regret your choice. =)

I had a great fall. The pain is horrible. But yet, i mustard up all my energy and i smile, and i work and i talk. I am tired. I tried to heal it, but it worsten. I brought it to myself is i can say.

Labels: ...the tear stricken face

Saturday, March 08, 2008

shrugs 22:22

New laptop.
Hee. My uncle bought it at the it fair.
It's suppose to be for me when i get into uni.
THE THING IS THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I CAN GET INTO UNI.
Haha.

Anyway, really have to thank my uncle.
It's like a laptop is not cheap lo.

0.0

Anyway, it is NEC de.
Quite value for money.
Brown colour.
13.3inch.
2kg.
3gig ram.2 ghz core 2 dual.
...........

Anyway, in simple terms.... It is good la.=p

Now i am working at Panasonic Trading Pte Ltd.
As a logistic oficer.
Oh well.
Basicially it is admin work.
Haha. Just some work so i have abit of money.
Working tim eis 9am to 5.45pm.
AND THE BAD THING IS THAT IT IS AT TUAS!! 0.0

Labels: oh whatever

Sunday, March 02, 2008

p.s. I love you 00:20

Did you guys watched the movie "p.s i love you".
I read the book before watching it.
Didn't realized it till my gay part told me that she lend me the book.
No wonder i found the show damn familiar.

Suddenly just felt that life is so vulnerable.
How long can each one of us live?
Another 50 years?
30 years? 10 years? 1 month? 1 day?

Maybe tml might just be the last day.
Maybe...
Than ask yourself.
Have you been truthful?
Have you taken anyone for granted?
Did you live a life without regrets?
What are your last wishes?
Who is the last person you want to say goodbye to?

Anyway this touching story touched my heart.
Don't reprimand yourself for what you have not done.
Do what you can do now.
AT THIS VERY MOMENT.

Wait?
This very word that kills.
Habit?
Don't regret.

Anyway jas and i went to check camp barrack out.
IT WAS LIKE SUPER COOL.
Tho it was located on this very ulu pandan hill.
This is a definately must go place!!!!!

Labels: hot tempered

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