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Tuesday, January 29, 2008
23:21 I am using fly laptop now. My computer is invested with some idiotic virus which i couldn't cure. So... Now... I have to reformat it. THANKS FLY...! For lending me the laptop. Saturday, January 26, 2008
i dunno
00:48 Thanks sharon!! Really appreciated that you took your time to accompany me. I was just feeling horrible today. You talk me out of it. Maybe you let me see a different view where i will never see. Still it hurts. Just felt like i stick a knife right in my heart. Yep. That's how it felt now. For the entire day. Plans plans plans plans. Fuck plans. Haha. I am not drunk. I only drink a little. Drink another little at home. Not to drown my sworrows. It is to let me sleep. To stop thinking. To stop hurting. I dunno what to say. I dunno what to do. Love. Complicity. What is love? Labels: died Friday, January 25, 2008
fucked
21:00 What the hell am i doing? Haha. I have absolutely no idea. Alrights... Nothing much to be done and nothing much that can be done. Thanks josephine and ping ping. But i guess what i have done was rather redundant. That wasn't the another good side of me girls. Bu yao dui wo gai guan. Labels: Nothing to be appreciated
horrible
11:44 I'm in school at the moment. Just had mac breakfast like 1 hour ago. I didn't feel like doing my project. Neither did i feel like hanging out. Maybe i am just tired. Maybe i just wished for a some music. Maybe i just hoped some some time alone. Oh ya. I lost my ear piece on the stupid field trip. We had a national education trip on Wednesday. We went to the Singapore Discovery Center. Oh well, it was quite dumb, but... We tried to make the best out of the worst. It was my idea taking stupid and silly photos. At least we tried to have fun. We toured around OCS as well as the discovery center itself. Oh ya, we watched a movie. "Mt everest" It was a pretty cool movie. Suddenly i feel like climbing mountains too. I miss those time where me and jasmine went for camps. I might be going Nepal this march to climb mountain tho. Shall go physco my aunty. Hee. Times really flies. Years passed like days. It's horrible, but it is life. I am graduating soon. But yet i have no idea what i want to do in life. I dunno what i can do for a living. It feels like i hasn't been growing up. Life is filled with irony. The more you expect, the more disappointment. The more you hope, the more you'll lose hope. The more you plan, the more you'll have a change of plan. The more you wait, the more the morale just swims away. It's quite true. Looking all around me, there are numerous examples. Labels: but appreciated?, envied
Hapy bday
01:35 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN YAQI! Haha. That silly girl is 19 away. Welcome to the old people's party! =p Stay happy bubbily and cute always. =) Labels: lonelynights.. Monday, January 21, 2008
sigh
13:33 I am horrible. I reach my lab at 12 today. 12noon. I guess other than fly and momo, nobody noticed my absence. =p Recently i realized that i have been doing random stuffs. I haven't been using my brains alot. I guess i should start using them before my brain die off. So i started off reading story book. I have no money to buy. SO... I stole one from my aunty's cupboard. It's romance. But it's boring. Passion, desire, complicated yet ironical plot. Oh well. At least it is readable. No fish, prawn also can. =X I told my manager that i am not going to be the lab technician @ NYP le. An accomplishment for the lazy person - me. Suddenly... I realized. I AM 21. Yep. It is time to grow up. It is time to leave the tiny and safe world i have been living on. Realistically, this is society, this is life. No point blaming. No point grouching. Take it in my own stride. Play it cool. Be steady and strong. Just look ahead and move on! Labels: ciao Sunday, January 20, 2008
fuck
21:19 I am staring into the blank space a moment ago. I think i think too much sometimes. I think i am too rigid and stubborn sometimes. Why am i expecting the unexpectable? What do i want? You hold the key to my happiness. But yet i think i covered the key hole. My mouth has super glue all over it. I dunno how to open them at the right time. And there are just some mistakes in my expression. But yet i didn't did explained. ....... I just don feel like typing anymore. ciao~ Labels: magic? it's not working
idonfeellikebloging
21:08 A sunday morning with jasmine at ponggol end. We were fishing. It was a quiet place. And there were monsterous fishes. Didn't manage to catch any. I think those monsterous fishes had their fill. - with my mama's fresh prawns. =( Still, enjoyed the time spent with my gay part! Went home to do autocad for my uncle. poof~ piang~ Labels: it's like i just killed myself Saturday, January 19, 2008
Tired
05:36 5.41am! HORRIBLE. I am so tired la. But i am still helping this someone to reformat and crack as well as install programs. MY DEAR GIRL, appreciate k???! Whahahaha! Labels: 0.o Tuesday, January 15, 2008
sigh
17:33 The weather is sure cooling. At 5.30pm now. I AM HOME. =) Walking in the rain seems like what i did. The little droplets dropping on my head with cold wind howling across my small pathetic body. I am glad i had my jacket on. My mum scolded me for not bringing my umbrella. ACTUALLY, i did bring. It's in my bag! Haha. I just missed the feeling of walking in the rain i guess. But the rain did me some good. At least my splitting headache seems to be ok now. I guess i am quite irritable these few days. Or maybe, it's just me. Or maybe it is the weather? *Shrugs* I guess it's just me. Labels: rain rain, wash me away Monday, January 14, 2008
Do to others only what you want others to do unto you
00:45 Have you guys ever experience this kind of feeling: "The feeling of being strangled till you cant breathe? The feeling of being trapped? The feeling of emptiness? (Like losing everything)" I am claustrophobic (phobia of enclosed places). All these feelings are a norm to me. But recently, i seems to be experiencing it alot more than usual. Haha. It's a horrible feeling. *shivers* ------------------------------------------------------------------- KHARMA. Hmm. This is a very broad word. It has lots of meaning to it. I have been to numerous camps in the whole of my life. But i have the deepest impression of this phase miss ming (my discipline mistress in peicai) told me. "Do to others only what you want others to do unto you." This is a super nice phrase to replace kharma. But i really believed in this sentence. How many people can abide by this little phrase? How many people have actually thought through before they act? Sometimes it's quite good if people can put themselves in others' shoe. Feel the hurt and disappointment that you'll never know that you've inflicted on others. Feel that happiness of the little words or actions that are brought to one another. Understand why people react this way. Think more. =) ------------------------------------------------------------------- Labels: touch my heart. SMILE. Saturday, January 12, 2008
fuck
02:35 It's 2.35am. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENMEI!! Finally 21 years old le! SO OLD. Lolz. Still... Gentle giant, stay gentle and happy always! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Dorene went back to Australia today. I didn't send her off because it will be quite troublesome for uncle winson to come back my house here b4 going home. I couldn't get to sleep at the moment. ARGH! When i finally can sleep, i can't. It's like so WTH. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ HUMANS!! Yep.. The horrible mammalia species. I met my friend and she was telling me that, "PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN". Promises. We humans like to make promises. It is actually a kind of conformation to our fellow species. But, a promise is a promise. Promises are NOT meant to be broken. How many time people actually forgot about those little promises they ever did made? SEE, horrible mammalia species. We humans like to misuse words too. For example, a simple "I LOVE YOU". Do you horrible humans know what love is? That is only one example ONLY tho. *shrugs* Fear! Humans fear of losing. Be it due to their huge ego or otherwise. We humans are afraid of losing. Losing friends, losing love, losing wealth and generally losing to other people. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ uoyevoli uoyssimi Labels: Givemepowertocureallhurt Thursday, January 10, 2008
bored
10:34 I am suppose to take pictures of those beautiful gifts ren mei, pris and joyce gave to me. But i'm pretty lazy at the monent. SO... I will do it maybe tonight. =) Thanks renmei for the beautiful K-swiss watch. =) Thanks pris for the beautiful Adidas belt. =) Thanks joyce for the cute "Anything" sleeveless. =) Haha. SO loved by everyone! Thanks girls. This saturday is Renmei's birthday! It's her turn to turn 21! How old can ppl get??! Haha. Anyway, i am in my school lab at the moment. The lab is empty. Everyone went for the open house. I didn't go. Haha... I am suppose to do my project. Suppose to finish by this week. But i haven been doing it. I cheated in my project abit. SO when my supervisor need it, i always have a set of hardcodes of 3 types of signals. Just 3. Haha. At least it buys me abit of time to finish my project. Yday we had an 38 outing. Haha. It just feels like JC times where we sit down and eat and chat and GOSSIP! Haha. Suddenly feel so old. Like graduated from JC so so so so so so long already. Will post up pictures when i get home! CIAO~ Labels: 171.. +++ Sunday, January 06, 2008
trashed
22:52 I just feel like screaming. Suddenly i felt that my heart died. I have absolutely no idea what is happening. Totally dunno. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ All humans are different. Even same individual react differently to the same problem at different time. Humans have feelings, emotions. They are uncontrollable. They are unconditional. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Crisises happens all the time. What can i do? Now my only hope is for an angel to bring me some light. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Fear. Do you know how it feels to be in fear? Emptiness. Solitude. So near yet so far. In short, It's patheticness. Yep. I am. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Character. Personalilty. Egos. Ego. This is a killer. I totally hate my ego. But yet, it is me. How can i get rid of it? ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Love. So uncontrollable. So unpredictable. But yet it hurts. It's mind versus heart. The many promises that comes with it. The many uncertainties that comes with it. Madly in love. Hmm.. that's real. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ This is just some random post. For random people like me. Why am i on earth? Why am i still breathing? ARGH! Labels: overflowing sky juice
fuck
22:37 What am i doing?!! I suddenly lost my communication skills. Ha! Everything i say just seems incorrect. I guess i should learn to just talk less. Or maybe i talk without my brain? I really have no idea. ARGH... Labels: where is my brain?
huh?!
01:23 Some pictures...  Jasmine using a super big knife to help me cut my cake. It's really hard.  DORENE... My cousin from australia! Left hand side is charlotte. Right is jasmine!  yaqi, me, yuen, deanna and gwen. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ HORRIBLE. Haha. That is the word i am going to use. =X I was looking at my surroundings. This is the closest verb i can used i guess. Maybe it is beyond words. HUMANS HUMANS... Selfish as we are. Horrible as we are. Yep. Unknowingly or knowingly. Be it... It's beyond my understanding. It's beyond description. No comments. Just... *shake heads* ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Labels: to each of its own? Thursday, January 03, 2008
argh
03:54 ARGH! I fell asleep on my bed without bathing. That was like so horrendous. To add on.... I am so sorry... I am just such a pig... Labels: guilty Tuesday, January 01, 2008
30th dec
05:43 Thank you guys for all those that you've done for me on my birthday. Thank you for all your wishes. =) Thanks for the dinner... Thanks for just being there! =) Really appreciated it girls!!! Hee. - Yuen, gwen, deanna, jas, charlotte, yaqi and my cousin dorene. Thank you yuen for the pretty queen notebook you got for me.  Thank you deanna for delibratly dressing up on my birthday. Thank you gwen for the filas tee you got for me.  Thank you dorene and uncle winson for the bilabong tee you got for me.  Thank you charlotte for the 2 revoltage tee as well as the 2 badges and well as the cheese cake you got for me.  Thank you yaqi and jasmine for the 21 gifts you two got for me!! Yep. 21!! Gosh. I can imagine the amount of effort and money plus anger spend. I really really love it!! Thank you so so so so so so so much.   Scrap book.  I received this very special scrap book from jasmine. Wow!! SO touched. She manage to get messages and pictures from my secondary school, 38 gang, srbball, nyp classmates, nypbballers..... The book was super duper pretty la. I nearly fainted when i got it. THANKS YOU GAY PART! It's really pretty. To shanice (animal farm): Hey.. Really really thank you for the scrap book. It is really nice. Tho you say it is one of the not so nice production of yours... But still thank you!!!!!! Hee. To my gay part: Hey.. Really dunno what to say. Really touched for what you did. Aiyo, you shouldnt have spend so much on those presents. Very xin tong for you leh. You worked so hard than all the money on me.. 0.0 THANKS GAY PART. =) Labels: THANK YOU |
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