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Oh well... Sunday.
It's another boring day. After the operation, everything really changes. i had lost my freedom of gg out anywhere and anytime. Freedom - a big word. But it means alot to me. I still remember the times when i was stuck at home. When i was sec 1 and 2... My mum realli refuses to let me go out unless it is with her or my relatives. At tat time, i really yearn for freedom. just abit will do. I always look with envy eyes when my friends attend outings and stuffs while i stayed at home. Well, i guess things are different now huh. I am older, and the degree of freedom is much different now... haha...Anyways, i have been rotting at home... And guess wad, my rubber band snap. the left side. God... Lucky tml need to go check up liao, if not than die. lolz... i think i eat too much when i am not suppose too so the band snap. nah... Who cares... i will still continue to eat. Hee... Jasmine so ppor thing los. She is having diarroeah... If not i think we will go out today. Lolz... Anyway, she is stuck at home and i am stuc at home too. *sianz* Hope tml can go out. Hee... Haiz... One stupid burned CD crashes my whole com today. So unlucky can. *shrugs*


FriDay

]]Tim sum[[
Long waited for this day. Haha... Early in the morning, i went to eat tim sum with peng, xue, kaili, serene, juan, mui and bee. Waited for them at harbour front... Waited and waited and who noes everyone else came at the same train... Lolz... Such a coincidence... Buts... I am the first to reach. Nah... Than we went around finding the tim sum resturant. Whoa... I think the place very grand los... Like some high class place lidat. Mui still made a reservation. Whoa... Really SDR le.... ANyway, SDR = Sang deng Ren. Lolz... ANyway, xue like sick. She look very chang bai. So poor thing. Than she like very cold. So i took off my checked shirt and lend her wear 1st. Dunno why, they keep saying i look like zhen you and chu wei. Look like them meh??? Than we went heartland walk walk cos peng they all dunno about the "new" heartland. After that. xue still feel very unwell, so we decided to quit walking and go serene's hse. Than on the way there, charlotte call me to go amk play pool. So i decided to go...

]]PooL[[
Played with her cousin, her cousin's bf and her cousin's bf's friend. Whoa... I suddenly realised that my pool sux... Cos i see double vision of the balls... My eyesight is failing me man... Need to get a new specs le. Anyway, than i pei charlotte go buy porrige for dinner... That poor girl of mine... Sick... Having a bad sore throat, slight fever and cough. Haiz... hope she is ok... Me like not any better. Very hard to take care of her also. Haiz... After the opt, everything changes... haiz... Anyway, i went to her hse to eat as well as her parents will be home late and that i have no where to go. Cant find jasmine... Than she was telling me that her cousin says that when i play pool i looked ver cool. *grinz* So the opt did do some good to me huh. Lolz... Than at last at ard 8, jasmine finally sms me. Phew... haha... So we decided to go drink.

]]Boat Quay[[
Meet Jasmine at raffles. Bought Fillet for her cos she hungry. Than we were walking towards boat quay. Decided not to go monks but just go drink nia. However although after the fillet, jas still hungry. So we went around finding food. At last we went macs. So glad jas was back. Finally some one who will pei me fong. Lolz... Than we wanted to go chocolate bar... But when we walked there, the stupid police is there los. got 4... than we cant get in. We decided that the nite is still young and so we walked around and toked. Maybe becos never tok to each other for 8 days than got alot to tok. Lolz... We walk and walk, than walk to fullerton and to esplanade and then to victoria there. Than at last we decided to walk back to see if the police is still there. Oh ya, we called yanhui to ask her about the pub she went. She told us that it is near Chocolate bar. SO we decided to try our luck. Tiki is the name of the pub. We went there and the stupid police is still there los. Dunno wad they are doing... Watching football?? SO we decided to go coffee bean to drink coffee first. So idiotic huh, So late at nite go boat quay drink coffee?? Lolz... Oh wells... Stupid police. Than we saw more policemen coming. We were wondering if there will be a raid. As we are from the 38 gang, we decided to wait there is see got show to see notz. Haha... But wait until both of us also sian, the police still stand there like some statue. in front of chocolate bar. I cannot tahan le, so i told jas to just walk there and try our luck. Don care the police. than we walked to tiki (beside chocolate bar)and went to the riverside there and sat down. Than the man came. He ask us how old and checked our ic. Guess wad, we can buy alcohol. Lolz. ANyway, we are 18 this yr. Hee... We ordered 2 jugs of teqilla 7-up and me another shot of it. Everything cost 50 bucks. Cheaper than chocolate bar los. Than we drink. Whoa... The jug can kill los. The alcohol is strong. Half a jug and the 2 of us abit gong le. Lolz. I still got my shot can. by the time we finish everything, we can no longer walk straight. Me and jasmine can. 1st time los. Hahaha...Than we need the toliet urgently. So at 1st went to monks there but close le so we went to the fullerton hotel instead. At the toliet i pratically wanted to just sleep there los. My head is spinning like shit. At last we went to outside raffles there and sleep. Jas woke me up at ard 6plus cos he wana go toliet. Than after that we went home. *shag*

I waited so long... Today, my mum allow me to go out. Supposingly, she allow me to go to sch... Haha... But i went char's church to help with her painting instead. But, dr pek suddenly called this morning to say that i have appointment at 3pm. So irritating lo... ALways so last minute de. In the morning i went char hse to find her. Than we watch "TWINS EFFECT". It was quite a nice show though. Than we went for lunch at AMK central than went to her church to paint. Than after that rushed home to go National Dental Center. Haha... Busy day huh. I am kinda tired. Nowadays not use to running about. No strength i think. Not enough food. Lolz. Char got sick. I think she got sore throat and she is coughing... Poor thing... Guess her parents took her to the doc le. *worried* Hope she is fine... Thursday have to go Back to NDC... Haiz... My 2nd home now is NDC man... Alamakz... My nuer gg overseas tml le... Hope she have fun. Yi lu shun feng!!

Haha... Me now rotting at home. Tried to study abit. Mid-yr is the end of june and i have yet to start studying. Haiz... Studying sux... The amt of just organic chem notes are already drowning me at home. I wished i could be outside studying. At least my concentration outside is better... God... But, now my jaw still not very intact so my mum refuses to let me go out. When will i be able to regain my freedom??? Anyway, today's boring, i had tuition with joyce at 1 to 3pm than i went to sleep. *tired* Haha... Than woke up ard 1hr later, going to the kitchen hunting for food. Guess wad, it is porridge again. *sigh* Well, better than my milk diet i guess.... Hiaz... Tml i am gg back to see dr pek. Will i be able to take out all the bands? Will i be able to see solid food? Will my jaw drop? ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... I have lots of question for the doc. I think i should list it down somewr... Lolz. In case i forget bout my question. NOW... at least abit better. Now i can tok on the phone le. But sometimes tok too long, jaw abit suan. Oh wells, side effects i guess. haha.. Tml, charlotte is returning from her GB regional camp. Wonder how she is now... Hao xiang ta... Plus tml still cannot go find her... Have to go National Dental Center at 2pm AGAIN. haiz... Everytime go there must wait so long los. Goodness... Waste time and waste energy. Can't wait for 18th... hee... It is for, u know wad... Hee... Anyway, tat's all for today... Nothing much le. Wad thing can happen at home huh? Lolz... *I WANA GO OUT!!* hahaha...

Haha... guess wad, my jaw dropped.... Hahaha... It realli did. It dropped right back with a piak sound when the dentist took out the bands. I couldnt close my mouth at that time. But now when the help of 4 bands, i still can move my mouth slightly and i can tok clearly. At least ppl can hear me on the phone le. *way to go!* Hee... Oh well... But i am still stucked at home... Haiz... Until my jaw doesnt drop?? Lolz... But still, me gg clubbing on 18th for sure. Hee. I want my old lifestyle back. *winkz* Anyway, last night got tok to charlotte for around 50min... Hee... Though it hurts abit to tok, but still miss toking to her.

Haiz... Suddenly see the different problems me friends around me faced. Yuenxin is health... Me is mouth... Jasmine is heart... Deanna and gwen is...(dunno how to discribe) Shirley is family... Oh well... This is Life i guess. Life is always not smooth sailing... But it is all these problems and troubles that make the someone grow up, wake up and realise wad life is all about and become a matured being. Ppl always say "u r not me, u nv experience how i feel, so how u noe.?" But to think about it, everyone experiences problems and troubles in a way or another. It is how the person chooses to deal with it that makes everything different. ANother important thing... FRIENDS. I think friends realli helps even if they cant do anything but just to acc u ard and stuffs... To everyone around me: Must take care of yourself. Got any problems, it is always better to say it out. You'll feel better. If u feel that no one is ard to help u, remember, there's always me. *winks* Anyway, jiayou jiayou. All the bez dudes...

FRIDAY

Waited and waited for this day to come so i can have a feel of solid food. At 1 plus, guess wad, joyce, xt and xuewei came over to come tok to me... Haha... They are trying their best to make out wad i am saying though... lolz... Than at ard 2.15, they left cos i have to go NDC. Suppose to be a very happy process... Dr lye took out the bands... when all the bands are taken out, guess wad, i hear a "piak" sound. Know wad it is? It is my jaw dropping. I totally cannot control my jaw cos it is shut for too long. Than i cannot bite, 2 doctors, DR lye and DR pek came... Took out the template supporting my jaw and put four rubber bands. The bands are suppose to support my jaw. Up till now, talking is abit clearer but my mouth cant even open bigger than 1 cm. But i don care, i still stuff porridge in it. And my jaw feels as though it is not part of my mouth can. Very XIN KU!!!!!!! The feeling realli sux lo. Onthe way back, in the cab, my tears cant help it again... It flow down.... My mum was so afraid but she didnt dare to say anything... Godz.... GG to the national dental center again on monday... Hope everything will be better than. -sigh-

Hahaha... Although face still swollen but cant help it but to feel happy. Hee... GG to take out my bands today. SOLID FOOD!!! *yumz* But still have to wait until 3pm... Oh wells... Haha... ANyway, some updates...

I managed to got out of my house yday to xiaohui's hse. Thanks to kaili and serene who took the trouble to come over and bring me. *Thankz* They were doing sushi at xiaohui's hse. Well, at first see peng and chunxue do is abit disgusting, but it is kinda appetising to me - cant deny. Lolz. My sec sch friends very cool de, they always find chances to do stuffs together. Lolz... A bunch of funnie and cute ppl. Peng keep saying to me : U very cute lehz. We sit ard, eat sushi and watch tv. Although is sit ard, but they nv fail to keep me luffing and smiling. Took some photos on xiaohui's phone. Although i luff and smile until my cheek abit pain, but i was realli feeling happy. Thankz guys... Hee... U guys make my day.

Today, i think XT and XW coming to see me at 1pm after their drums... Hee... Got ppl to tok to me le... Lolz... Me craving to tok - the usual talkative me. Lolz. Than at 2 plus GG national dental center... Lolz... Hope i can eat... *yumz*

Another day to go and i am taking out the bands which are making my teeth shut together. Really got those "cant wait feeling". I even dreamt of eating fried kuey tiao last night can. - muz imagine my hunger. I am so jealous of ppl eating food lo. My diet now is milk, milk and more milk. *dotz* For me, i eat so much and i am those type that will nv survive without food, realli very xin ku. *torturous* My face is less swollen le. Got the shape slowly forming already. Look different from last time. My uncle says i am cute. *grinz* Guess this is the price to pay to look good huh. *shake head* Time must faster pass today wor. GG to the NDC at 3pm tml. Today i took out the stiches. Whoa... Very painful lehz. Stupid stiches, so many somemore. Cannot tahan. Just realised that i haven been brushing teeth. Haha. ALways use mouth wash. Than DR lye say, "what? i 4get to tell u that u have to buy a specially small toothbrush to brush teeth everyday??" Oh wells... My teeth gg to rot le man... Hahaha. So i today than go buy the toothbrush. Later gg to brush teeth le. *yeah*

Anyway, yday, my nuer, jasmine and char came to visit me again. Really greatful to them. They tok to me than sort of put the pain and uneasiness of my mouth away. The 3 of them very joker de, although i cant move my jaw but i cant help it but to luff. Luff until my cheek very tired. Lolz. Than yday nite, when the pain subside, i am like hunting for all sorts of food other than the stupid milk to eat. I decided for bubble tea. Than i called my dad to bring me out to buy. Haiz. But the shop close le, so in the end i brought fruit juice instead. Better than drinking the milk at least.

Guess i am feeling better everyday. Hope i can get well soon. *smiles*

I cant help it... My right cheek is killing me. It is the first time in my entire life my tears flowed so freely becos of my teeth. I feel like screaming out loud but i cant. I cant even move my jaw.I hadnt sleep for the whole night. The right cheek was so painful that i couldnt use my right eye to see clearly. ARHHHHH!!!!! I tried to tell myself that when yy is living well and i shouldnt complain. I should be better off than yy in the sense that my operation is optional. Wad the hell... That is the point! It is optional and WHY I CHOOSE TO DO IT???? Haiz... I really cannot take it le. I have used all methods of making myself feel better and the pain seem to be increasing. Than i have a thought. I regretted not calling the nurse to put me to sleep for good in the hospital. My mum keep calling me to hang on. But does she noe the actual pain i am hanging on too? I cant blame her, but still.... VERY PAIN.... I had always been quite strong mentally, but this time round, i realli admit that i have lost. Totally lost to my mouth. WHEN WILL EVERYTHING BE OK??

Is it 2 days since i settled at home. My unbearable life seem to be getting abit more bearable each time.. Guess i am getting used to my plight? Haha. Oh well, all these is ownself find de, if i don want opt than no need so ma fan le. Haiz, but wad is done is done i guess. Haiz.. Dunno y but i suddenly miss my usual clubbing life. It's holidays. I am suppose to be ton-ing outside dancing and stuffs. Buts... Now i am stuck at home in this pathetic state of mine. I wana watch hary potterand my mum don even allow. I was telling myself (to make myself feel better), "don go out and scare ppl with that face of urs." I don seem to be able to do anything. Stucked at home. Sleep drink and sleep. My onli life is like waiting for friday to come and so that i can at least open my mouth abit and be abit more comfortable. Sorry ppl, i really cant help it but to complain here. To at least take out wadeva is inside me. I am sr=till considered lucky cos i guess i still have my mum and aunties taking care of me 24/7. I also got a good bunch of buddies who nv fail to cheer me up with sms. -smiles- And needless to say, still got my nuer and char to pei me. Haiz, xin ku ni le dear. Ni yao hao hao zhao gu zhi zi wor. Wo xian hen mei yong, yao zhuo zhem mo dou bu ke yi. Miss ya and love ya lots. *winks*

3rd of june
Oh well, sort of happily went to the hospital awaiting my operation. I didnt know wad was stored for me there. Life is still joyful at that moment. I had my last bowl of "ban mian" that evening before i couldnt eat anything from 12 mid-night onwards. I still had time that evening to call jasmine and charlotte. Oh well, charlotte and guihe gave me a surprise at the hospital. I run out of the admission office and vomited, but the next thing i see is charlotte standing in front of me. I was expressionless at that time. Half shocked, half relieved that i vomited what is suppose to come out. Oh well, b4 gg hospital, i went to sch n the morning for my gp make up and bio make up. But guess wad. I didnt manage to do my gp or bio. I just feel like puking and puking. *god* i am gg to get a ZERO man... Haiz...

4th of june
Awaited for the sun to rise. The sun in hospital is totally different. I really miss those days where the sun accompanied me to school every morning. I called my darling... I am so glad my darling and jasmine is always there for me when i needed them. ANyway, my darling rushed all the way to hospital to see me b4 i go for the operation. *so sweet rite?* Haiz... At ard 10... guess what, i have to go for the stupid opt le. Got into the skimpy operation gown. (at least it is blue) And awaited for my "bed".

Everything was a blur... I gave my mum my specs. I was sort of pushed into a freezer. Waited and waited. Pushed into the opt room. Poke here poke there and........ The next thing i know, the opt is done. Tubes were all over me. one in my nose, 2 on my mouth, 1 from the bladder... Godz... Really very xin ku. I keep vomiting fluid and blood. Felt so bloody. My whole face was swollen. I got my hp but i really no strength to use at all... It was a tottally terrible and horrible experience!!!!

Special Thankz...
Realli must thanks all the ppl around me who is supporting me and keeping me gg on. YY... Jas... Char... Guihe... alot alot more. Just a simple sms make my day better... Thankz... Cant wait to go back school and lead my normail life again.!!

][SATURDAY][

Visit YY
After the cip in school, we went to visit yy. On the way to SGH, we saw Van at the kovan bus stop. I didnt notice her at first. It was yanhui that saw her first though. In anyway, at that time, i wasnt feeling very well. I was having fever and i was feeling giddy. I think i am very sickly lately. [sIGh]
Haiz. It really pains me to see yy on the hospital bed with so many tubes. "Will she is alright?" YES she will. Haiz... I cant help it but to feel scared for her u noe... YY, MUST GET WELL SOON AR!!!

][SUNDAY & MONDAY][

All i could do is stay at home and rot. My fever seems to be getting worst. I lost my voice. I cant breathe. I went to the doctor and i guess if my condition continues, i will not be able to go for operation. My mum made me stay at home. I couldnt even get out of my hse door. But then, i was so unwell that all i did was sleep ard. *sadded* Lucky.... All these while got my baby kolar bear to pei me talk on the phone with my voice croaking. lolz. My routine this 2 days was to sleep, eat, eat medicine and sleep. SO sian lo...

][TUESDAY][
I bluffed my mum that i was gg to sch cos my mum still refuses to let me go out. This was a special day. This is the day me and char celebrate our 1st month. *smiles* I meet her at her school bus stop at around 8 plus. Than we went heartland mac for breakfast. Anyway, guihe abit mad today. SHe was talking to her blue dog and stuffs. Dunno y she so hyper los... Goodness... ANyway, after breakfast, we went to take neoprints at heartland. AT the new neoprint shop. The whole neoprint shop is filled with PL ppl man. SO scary. It can the the second PLMGSS. Haha. Outside the neoprint shop, i gave char the present. The eeyore and yanyan in the huge cup with a test tube. Hope she like it. i got a model (dunno how to describe) and a cigarette container. Than we decided to go char hse watch van helsing. Buts, the vcd spoil de. So never watched at all. In the end i slept while guihe and char dunno do what. I think i sleep very long. Lolz. At ard 2, guihe went off cos she meeting miao to go cut hair. Than she saw jasmine and audrey at the upper deck of 25. So i called audrey to disturb them.. *hee* Than me and char decided to watch tv. Dunno y, i think char very tired. SHe slept like a log on me - a pack of bones. Hahaha...

Anyway, one month passes just like dat. WHoa.. So fast... Now the next thing lined up for me is my operation. [sigh] Hope everthing goes on smoothly.

My blog spoil again... Trying to make something nice but in the end.... Haiz.... Dunno lar.... Today's pi qi not good.... Haiz....