Grace's

FEVER!

Stupid bug. I think probably because i am tired. It just got me. But still.. I had to finish my projects.

Bball seems to be taking too much of my time. Or is it... ... ...? I really dunno. Anyway, i acc yaqi to NDC today for her teeth before gg to rp for the game. She cooked barley for me. Aww, so sweet right?!! Such a man girl can cook damn nice barley la. I am so surprised. Haha. Thanks YAQI. =)

The headache seems to be getting me. I am feeling so so lethargic. I cant think. I cant see. I cant do anything. Maybe i need a break from school?
Guess i really need it! STOP ALL THE REPORTS AND PROJECTS CAN??!!

After wad you said yday, i cant help it but to smile.
I know that shouldn't be the way, but it did warm my heart.
For once, it happened. =)

Labels: school

Monday, July 30, 2007

aww 01:27

Defense. Haha. I think that is a FOUL. =p

Hasn't been blogging. Life's really hectic with projects and reports. I have to remind myself that it will be over soon. Yep.

Soon i'll be graduating. Haha... Soon... Maybe i suddenly don feel like graduating so soon??!

Finally..! Nyp is now more of a team. Playing bball is all about happiness. It's all about a team. It's all about friends.

Let's play on guys... =)

To my gay part: Hey, do take care of urself k? Be strong. Remember that your gay part will always around for you. =) ALWAYS.

To YAQI: Get well soon. Take care of your teeth. =)

Reallygladforyourmanyconcernandcare.
Sosweet. =)

Friday, July 20, 2007

pathetic 23:52

I know jolly well that i can't and i shouldn't.
But i still did in the end.

I feel stupid and useless.
Life is a joke.
And i am allowing a joke to happen?

HOW COULD I?
Just feeling very pathetic now. REALLY.

Labels: It's pathetic

gosh 23:38

The game was a disaster. We lost 8 points to ITE. Guess there is no point saying much things now. Really hope we can play well for the consecutive games. Can we?

Anyways, girls, training at 9am on sunday. Indoor court. =)

I feel constipated. Emotionally constipated. Really dunno wad's wrong with me. I have no mood to do anything AT ALL. Really. It's like HELL. MY GPA.. .. ..

Labels: I need that special light to lead me on...

Thursday, July 19, 2007

? 01:13

Whentwopersonfallinlovewitheachother,
thatisthehappiestthingthatcanhappen...
Whenonlyonepersonliketheother,
wadheorshecandoisjusttowalkaway...
Whenbothlikeeachotherbutcanneverbetogether,
thatisanirony,astupidirony...

whatcanisay?nothing.
cosihopeicansayailoveyoutoyou
andgetoneinreturn.
Isitpossible?
Theanswerisforeverno.
Andistillhavetosmileandwalkaway,
leavingeverythinginmyheart..
Nevertoberevealed..
cosicantstoplovingyou..
cosmyheartcriesforyou..
cosnowmyheartshatters..

Interesting. I found this. Decipher it. =)

Friday match at at 6pm. Please meet at 4.15 at north canteen. Be properly attired by then. =) ALL THE WAY GIRLS. FIGHTING. STAND TALL.

Labels: OFF BALANCE

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

school 14:20

I'm in school again. Tryin to do my biomems but nontheless side-tracking again.

I'm using yaqi's lappie. Suddenly, maybe having a laptop is a more convenient choice. Really thankful to yaqi and my gay part. They are always the ones who would lend their lappie to me.

THANKS GUYS. =)

So much reports and project to be completed next week. Really wonder how am i gg to finish. Competition is just days away. And there are trainings. Than there are school. Sometimes i dunno wad's wrong with me recently. I totally no mood to do project. I keep hogging onto my bed. Tiredness took over me??

Suddenly i don feel like moving on. How i wish life could just be paused.
Having training later again. 2days away from POLITE. Must jiayou ar!!

ALright. I should get back to my project. =)

I feel like i am falling off... ...

Labels: school

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

pathetic 09:10

It's pathetic.. More report to go.. WTH..

Was late for 1 hour. Lucky Mr Vinn decided to be nice (as always) to mark my attendence. Woke up at 7. Suppose to be able to make it in time. But 72 was really packed to the brim. I couldn't get up the bus. In the end i decided to take 70.

I am feeling very lethargic today. It was kinda bad. I dunno wad's wrong with me. Maybe it's the symtoms of PMS. IT'S COMING SOON!! (I think)

It's 3 days away from competition. Haiz.. I suddenly feel scared.
Are we prepared?
Physically and metally??

GAY PART. Get well soon k??!! Always see her in pain. Heartache sia.

Maybe you are right.
But please don't make me fall and leave me there alone.

Labels: It is sweet but bitter too.

Monday, July 16, 2007

fuck 15:48

Haiz.. Suddenly heart aching like hell. Fuck.

Sometimes i realli dunno wad's wrong with me.
Sometimes i think i tok too much.
Sometimes i think i should just disappear.
Sometimes i think i should just empty my entire body.

Keep it blank...
Erase everything...

I detest everything that is happening at the moment.

Only if one day life can be like a fairy tale...
ONLY IF... ... ...

Labels: PMS

Saturday, July 14, 2007

pics 23:34

We went harry potter @ amk hub after training today.

Me and my gay part taking pics from Pris's new phone!
We set this as her wallpaper. =p

After the movie we decided to go town for cheesecake and milkshake. On the way there, see, everyone sleep like pig lidat. On 132.

My conclusion : Yanling is actually very pretty w/o specs.

Yaqi is camera shy, that's why only pris and i took.

Pris.me.yaqi

Managed to pushed Pris away. Haha.. That faker! She actualli pei he with us! Haha...

Group Photo! =)

Look at this!!!!! hahahaha!

Labels: pics uploaded

Thursday, July 12, 2007

pic 00:16

Here are some updates with pictures. =)

This is taken on ren mei's grad day. Haha. =)

Does this smile look familiar??

Pris is suppose to hold the cow's hand. But obviously she failed. Whahaha!

The bitch girl with banks. =)

Labels: cheer up. =)

Monday, July 09, 2007

10:48

My gay part dislocated her shoulder!

Haiz.. She very poor thing can. She dislocated her shoulder while trying to save coach's video cam when she miss the step. Budden, according to the doctor, her muscle is too strong. It actually pulled the dislocated humerus back to it original place! Very powerful right??!!

Anyway, it happen on sat. I acc her to TTSH. Honestly, the A&E is not as wad i expected it to be. I watch grey anatomy and ER, all different de. Singapore de like stand no where compared to theirs. -.-" What happen?? The waiting time is freaking long also! We reach at about 3plus. Than we left at about 7plus 8. -.-" FAINTS. We wait until we both fell asleep sia!

Actually wanted to go jek's bday thingy. Budden, it was so late already. Jas haven bathed, and i am wearing until very CMI. So in the end i never go. HAha. Yaqi smsed and asked if wanna meet for dinner. So we decided to go for dinner instead. Collected donuts from her friend buibui. Haha. Yes! My glazed donuts!!! Than we went marina square's changing appetite to eat.

Sunday was horrendous! Training in the morning. Was taking bus to school and guess wad. I saw Yaqi. Haha. Lucky i saw her, she brought my glazed donuts out. *breakfast* Haha. Budden i dunno wad happen, i drop one of the donut on the floor. *heartache* Still got 2 more mouth lo. Faints.

Training training training!!

After training we went amk hub to eat. MOS burger!

Went home after that. Yaqi wanted to get some formal clothes, so i decided to acc to get after her match. I was on 70. SO i call her to get up 70 when i pass by the cisco bus stop. Who knows, the sms thingy crop up, i smsed her that i am reaching, but she only received when the bus passes by the bus stop. *faints*

Walked around, we only manage to get a pair of stripe working pants. In the end we brought 1dollar cone icecream and decided to go home. =)

Before boarding the bus i went to buy strawberry sia. Lolz.. Than we saw the fruit stall. Yaqi brought jackfruit and i bought those green mango.

I am allergic to mango, but i just cant resist those green mango! Haha. Super nice sia. Budden when i ate, i can feel that something is wrong Lolz.. I am such a idiot!
LOLz...

Labels: be brave

Friday, July 06, 2007

sorry 23:48

I have nothing to say for to explain.

Is sorry the word? Other than sorry are there any other things to say?

All these are all my fault. You're perfect. In every and any way. Too perfect for me. I have been asking myself about everything. About what i want and stuffs. Maybe from the start i shouldn't have even entered your life. I bring nothing but misery.

I'm sorry.

Labels: Sorry

pathetic 13:11

Arhh! I hate design lab. Gosh.. RUSH RUSH RUSH. Haiz.. Actually is because i never bother to finish them. Now everything is pilling up. The total percentage is 30%. Gosh. SO feel like redoing the entire project. I hasn't been doing it seiously all these while. -.-"

I almost got all my common test result back le.

Electronics = B
Biomens = B
Design = B

Oh well, they are not very promising.. But already very good le. I hasn't been studying lately. All these test i merely just read through. Gosh. My GPA of 3.8 is getting further and further away!

I NEED A..!

I totally don't feel like studying lately. I dunno what's wrong with me. I practically lose interest in everything that i do and everything that is around me. Ping ping say i play too much. Did i? I really have no idea.

I am old i guess. My old brain cant function as well lately. I get bored and tire too easily. I cant take stress. It can't tell me what i want anymore. I NEED A BRAIN TRANSPLANT!

The semester is gg to be over soon. It's just a few more weeks. What can i say? Be it project or attachment, that marks the end of my poly life. Another step to pass. Every new step i take, it seems to difficult. Every step comes with new expectations and responsibilty. Every steps comes fatique, anxiety, lost... ...

Suddenly it dawn upon me that for thepast 20 years, i hasn't been actually doing alot of things. I took the path everyone build for me. I don have the courage and strength to fight for the simpliest things that i want. I only learn to accept. How pathetic. But that is me.

Labels: grace., It's pathetic

Thursday, July 05, 2007

nuts 23:10

I did not go to school today. Couldn't wake myself up. Just really couldn't bring myself to school.

Donuts!

Went to queue with Lucy Tan YaQi Tanaka_san for the donuts at raffles city. Haha.. i brought 3 boxes. =) The donuts is really nice. We queued for 2 hours. Gods.. Went we went suntec, we saw another donut factory. Guess wad, the queue is freaking short. *faints*

While queuing, i heard a song that i like. It's Locus Iste by libera. It's really nice. It reminds me of the times when i was in choir. In the end, i brought the disc. It's high society. =)

Maybe i was wrong to switch to bball. Maybe i should stay in choir. *shrugs* I spoil my throat. SO no choice. No voice comes out now. At least it is not how it used to be. Gods.

Went to cut hair after that. Lucy, jas and me. At far east. I had a long tail. Haha. New hairstyle. Jas had a really neat haircut in contrast to her bushy long hair. Haha. As for lucy, i think her haircut is rather pretty. Haha. Surprising right?! I don have the pic. Must ask jas for it if u want. Whahaha!

Labels: donuts

fuck 00:05

What do i really want?
What am i thinking?
What am i doing?

I need a break.

I am so drained lately.
I can barely breathe.

I don want to talk.
I don want to think.

I am better off dead.

Labels: Touch my heart. It's dead.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

team 23:53

It was pathetic.
Wad's wrong with everyone.
Suddenly today, i lost all my confidence.
After hearing wad yaqi say, i did stop and think for a while.
I think we should stop being naive and look at the big picture. We've been thru so much trainings. How many of us really did have the correct mindset? What are all of us thinking when we're playing ball? Are we really a team? Where do we stand? Politics? Happy? Passion? Hardwork? Angry? Disappointment? Learning process? Winning? Losing? Playing?

I dunno. Suddenly felt so down. What can i say? I am in no position. Skills are not good enough. Stamina not good enough. Too small. No strength.

Team? This word is suddenly so distant.

Labels: What should i do?

Monday, July 02, 2007

-.- 00:13

Everything has been bad lately. Gosh! Trainings, projects, school.

There are so much expectations.. I cant seem to fulfill any. The tot of expectations, commitment and responsibility just puts me off. I need a break.

I dunno wad else to say but sorry.

wilkommen

Loving you
Missing you
Forever
~~Letting go~~

all about me

GRACE.ZAVE.HEIKE

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