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Sunday, October 31, 2004
Poor memory might be a good thing afterall...
23:29 Sometimes... There are really alot of things that i tot i had forgotten... However, it is not. *sigh*
Wake boarding
22:15 Haha... Went to bedok reservoir to watch wake boarding... It actually appealled to me much more than i tot it would... In any sense, i am determined to take up this new sport by hook or by crook... I want to live in my world. Yappz... Haiz... Must really work hard and earn alot of money... Cos i want to start my new hobby... *grinz* Buts... B4 everything... A's... haiz... So sian... Nevermind... i will live towards my goal than... *winkz* Friday, October 22, 2004
18:53 Closer and closer to A's... So scary... Haiz... Feel so much like a nerd can... *sianz* Oh well... That's what a regular student should be doing huh... *sigh* Hope everything can be over and done with soon... To everyone: ALL THE BEST FOR UR EXAMS... Thursday, October 14, 2004
Graduated!
21:25 Oh well... Anyway day passes fast... Finally graduated from srjc... Haha... yea...!! Haha... When will A's be over?? *god* Hope that it will be over soon and over for good... Meanwhile... Must JIAYOU!!! Yapz... realli hope everyone is doing well... Hmm... Hasn't been sleeping well latey... Everytime i will just start at my celling waiting for the time to pass... I hasn't been eating well... I look at the food and just don't feel like eating... I want to work... I have no money... It's so sad... Everyone thinks i am very rich... AM i realli that rich? NO... I'm not... REALLI... Everyweek, i only had that mere $30 bucks to feed my big appetite... What about clothes? What about entertainment? What about the thing i want? My dad isn't earning alot... My mum's not working... i really want to work... In a way to fulfil my expenses needs... Today, me jasmine and yuen went to train bball with the J1... It always feel good to be playing bball again... Than when it was gg to end, me n jas was toking to mr kee... I guess what he says is very true... Society has made it in such a way that money and academic is the most important... Everyone is just concentrating on earning money that they don even follow or keep their interest... *sigh* Okies... Actually got some stuffs at the back of my head... Haiz... but i just dunno how and i don want to to express it out... *sigh* Thursday, October 07, 2004
So far...
22:57 Never felt so far away in my whole life... Never felt so alone in my life b4... so far, so far...*sigh*
Guess wad...
05:39 Haha... I sneak out of house again... Too stress at home le... Just reach home not long ago... Hmm... I didn't know where to go at first... At last i decided to go back to my old house... Haiz... had great memories there... Haha... I still prefer my old house for a reason or another... Tho i have my room now... Nowadays i felt so lonely... I dunno why, but i feel like i am all alone in the world... Guess this statement is very unfair to ppl around me who have always been there for me huh.. *sorry* Suddenly miss the past so much... I miss the times.......... where i still have quite a bit of authority in sch to abuse... the numerous councillor camps... the boring chem lessons in the science lab where me and chunxue will tok and joke... my 4th floor classroom. p.e where we play bball... chang, hanisah n me will tok and pass messages around... the trip home deciding to take 70,103 or 147... hope... eye candies... serangoon central... copy homework... canteen... council room... council meetings... *sigh* I so very much miss all my secondary school friends... Especially the SDR... Is everyone doing well now? How is hanisah and lichang? So fast, it is 2 years since we graduate from Peicai le... Everybody had taken their own path, whether by choice or by force... Are everyone happy? Friends, take care!
01:18 Another day passes by... I can't seem to wait for the end of my JC life... Everytime i looked at my small little diary i just can't help it but to wonder abt after nov 27... How would my life be?? Anyway, i hadn't been very motivated to study lately... Almost all of my time had been devoted to teaching charlotte and wayne... WAD ABOUT MY EXAMS?? haha... *shrugs* Guess i am still struggling alright... Hmm... Seriously dont feel like gg school or go anywhere lately... I just feel like staying at home n rest...(so unlike me huh) Hmmm... Looking at everybody mugging, i really feel guilty for not studying... *sigh* I got alot of things in me that i want to sae it out... But dunno why, wheneva i blog, my mind tend to be in a complete blank state... Haiz... Hopefully during A's my mind wun be in a total blank... *sigh* Monday, October 04, 2004
Drip and drop....
23:56 I was watching the fireman show jus now... Dunno why, all of a sudden, i drop a tear... Tears... My valuable tears... haha... It suddenly occur to me how hard it is to make myself cry... crying is a way of expressing sorrows huh... Cannot cry mean keep everything inside... It is the heart is is crying... very xin ku de... I use to be a cry baby... Since sec sch, i promise myself that i WILL NOT cry... since then, i find it so hard to cry... I am so use to eating up my own tears than i no longer know how to cry... In this world, it's so difficult to really know how ppl feel... Esp deep in the person's heart... Hope everyone will always be happy...
haiz.......
19:00 There are so many things i want..............!!!!!!!!!!! But no $$................ Haiz.....................
Life?
18:09 Life's always good? No... Life's always sweet? No... Life's always smooth? No... when is life eva good? Friday, October 01, 2004
Post Prelims Blue (PPB)
21:00 Okies... Guess wad... I failed for all my subjects... And i mean everything... Every single thing... Was sad... Guess i'm dumb. Like wad mr ong always say, "A DUMB-O" What the hell am i doing? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Let's draw a line to exams stuffs... Okay... Was walking around alone today... It suddenly occur to me... If i were to be alone in this world with no friends at all, can i survive? Will I? Sometimes realli feel like isolating myself from the whole entire social world... Maybe it will do me some good... Will it? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I look at the lamp and blow the candle off... Sitting there in the dark, thinking and thinking...
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20:47 It felt as tho someone threw a sharp iceberg right into my heart.... It's bleeding.... Blood's gushing out.... I'm in PAIN.... I've never felt so beaten down before.... It truly was a defeat.... Admit it grace! You are not as great as you think you are... You sux! And your are one stupid ass hole... |
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